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Post by X factor on Mar 14, 2014 15:58:58 GMT -5
"When I'm not drunk or drinking, sometimes I feel as if evil is all around me, everywhere and that there's nothing I can do about it.
But when I'm drunk or drinking, I simply do not care about that evil"
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Post by X factor on Mar 22, 2014 22:32:17 GMT -5
"What do you do when there's no more places to run, when alcohol no longer hides you from a dreaded reality, then what?"
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Post by X factor on Apr 2, 2014 18:08:25 GMT -5
 This is your path while on alcohol, a path made of sludge, where every step, deed, task, becomes labored and exhaustive. Where soon the ability to perform even mundane daily tasks becomes laborious, and motivation becomes hard to find. |
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Post by X factor on Apr 30, 2014 20:40:00 GMT -5
 When you first try to pull away from alcohol, or any other chemical addiction, the world, the environment you exist in, will seem very frightening at first. You will see ghosts, be reminded of things that chemical addiction hid from view...that would include emotions, regrets, bills, relationships, annoying people, deadlines, and the list goes on. Initially all these things will come rushing in, like above with poor Mickey Mouse. But then they'll begin to fade away as you face them one at a time, if you're able to stay sober or off drugs long enough. And your fears and anxieties know this...or your own personal ghosts...they know this. Mickey Mouse will be alright, and so will you if you have faith and do the right thing. . |
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Post by X factor on May 10, 2014 12:54:38 GMT -5
I don't think there's any such thing as a 'Weed Face'...
Like when you drink alcohol, a lot of it, the way a alcoholic would or does, people often get that 'booze' face look...red face, swollen face, puffy face which is caused by dehydration, and body trying to retain fluid, and caused by damaged capillary blood cells on surface of face.
But other than maybe blood shot eyes, not sure if there's any 'weed face' type of look, like there is with alcohol and of course crack and meth...which totally turn users face into droopy mask.
Photos of such faces are kind of to gross to even post, so I won't.
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Post by X factor on May 11, 2014 3:21:57 GMT -5
When you stop drinking, or relying on drinking to 'boost' your mood, so many things begin to change.
Most have no idea how suppressive alcohol is to over all happiness and out look.
When you stop drinking it's like you get your life and health back, assuming you were already a positive person before you started drinking.
Usually when you stop drinking, you go back to being the person you were before you started.
And you're way less prone to making a fool out of yourself, to say things, write things, that weeks later you're like 'Wow, I can't believe I said that or wrote that'...
Ugly things can come out of a person when they're drunk.
(I've never really heard of ugly things coming out of someone who's high on weed though).
Not sure why alcohol often brings out the ugly, yet weed brings out the creative side or goofy side.
But a well balanced person doesn't need weed or alcohol to bring out any side, instead good nutrition will do that.
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Post by X factor on May 14, 2014 14:22:07 GMT -5
When you stop drinking, for whatever reasons, assuming you drank 3-8 cans or glasses a day. Or better yet, assuming you drank to get drunk everyday, as soon as you stop the first thing you have to get use to is 'time'...spare time, and the extra energy that will come from not drinking. Also, if you're use to being drunk or buzzed by say 7:00 pm every evening, when you stop drinking, at first you will almost carry yourself as if you are still drinking, motor habit, mindset, mentality reflex. And when you stop suddenly, the mind, the body is like 'Ok, now what?'. And only you can fill in the 'what'. And filling in that 'what' is key to it all. It's essential to fill that non drinking or non substance time up with something else. Alcohol, any substance abuse, wastes a tremendous amount of time, time that is so precious and rare. When one is addicted to a substance you end up putting so much off, not wanting to work late or get up early, all to accomidate the addiction. Once you remove substance abuse, suddenly working till 10:00 pm or getting up early to accomplish more, doesn't seem so difficult anymore. And you begin to look better, at least when it comes to alcohol, face will begin to cleanse itself, puffiness goes away, bags under eyes go away, and suddenly you look 5 or more years younger. But also mind starts working again...and this actually can frighten some who are hyper intelligent, those who think to fast for the environment their in. Alcohol, weed, or other substances, greatly slows down the thinking process, makes you way less productive. Ye, you have artist who say they're 'more creative while high'...but after they record or write song, all the people, team of people, who then edit song, produce it, sell it ect, they're not high or drunk, for if they were song would go no where. Sure the artist can 'get high' but that's only cause everyone working around them to produce song isn't! Some started drinking or getting high simply to hide the reality of falling short of goals. So as long as you're high or drunk, you don't care that you've wasted your talent, but once sober again, the sharpness of your mind comes back, and the energy to actually see things through. You will get much more out of an evening being sober, than you ever can being drunk. And you'll wake up knowing you didn't make a fool out of self, or talk with someone you normally wouldn't. Life will still be ugly though, other people you don't like won't suddenly go away, but being of sober mind will help you make enough right decisions that you can eventually navigate away from such people and environment. When drunk or high, you waste a lot of time sleeping, being silly, but not planning and preparing. Being drunk or high makes you tolerate things more that you normally wouldn't. So in the long run you get no where, situation never changes, and depression and hopelessness sets in. And it's even worse if you find out you're medically sick do to execessive drinking or drug use, like finding out you have diabetes...  I mean who and the heck would want to go through this crap for the rest of their living life?, simply do to poor eating habits and over drinking while younger. Not I, said the rabbit. Or liver damage, hobbitney damage, heart disease, blood clot, stroke, and a host of other ailments I can't even correctly spell. Then it's no longer a game, now it's a burden, and a costly one. Health is the biggest gift ever, none of us should take good health for granted, cause once it's gone, it's gone, then the next step is simply the grave. No chemical substance is worth robbing you of life, happiness and liberty. |
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Post by X factor on May 18, 2014 16:54:21 GMT -5
Life actually becomes less scary after one gives up alcohol, and or other drugs.....less scary, not more scary.
Life only seems scary when drinking, in between being drunk, cause nerves and mind, and body isn't right, so life seems scary until drunk again.
But once you stop drinking for a while, that nervous, scared, uncertain feeling kind of just goes away.
And problems don't seem so bad after all.
I mean if you're a live and healthy you're doing alright.
Not only that, but most of the problems a drinker or druggy face are caused by 'self' when drunk or high. So when you stop getting drunk or high, you also stop generating problems for yourself.
You stop putting things off, that's a main one.
And you become more productive, time is now spent doing other things instead of getting drunk, then falling asleep and waking up feeling aged and spent.
And your energy level is way more consistent, in that you're not awake one minute, then practically in a coma the next.
That takes some time getting use to, having energy all day long that is.
Everything gets better when sober, confidence goes up, and when sober you have nothing to feel 'ashamed' of cause when sober you're much less likely to embarrass self.
No guilt, no shame, just makes for a over all healthier self.
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Post by X factor on May 21, 2014 15:11:17 GMT -5
If you give up to many addictive habits all at once, like say alcohol and tobacco, chewing, snuff or cigarettes, if you give it all up at once, being 'sober' and 'chemically clean', in and of itself will seem like you're high.
If your body is us to a cold one every day between 5 pm - 8 pm, complemented with tobacco, and suddenly you deny body of both, just be prepared for odd things to happen with your mood.
Without alcohol or tobacco to slow down your pulse, be prepared to be 'jacked up' more from sugar, and other basic food items or drinks.
Be prepared to feel like the incredible hulk, intellectually.
Tobacco and alcohol are like brakes on the emotions, remove those two elements and now you have to learn how to apply the brakes naturally again.
Everything is off balance at first, cause for years, when addicted to alcohol or tobacco, people artifiscally apply the brakes, control the emotional pedal, with chemical addiction.
Remove the chemicals, and once again the body has to learn how to adjust it's own valves and switches to bring balance to mood and outlook.
But if all one is addicted to is Beer and or tobacco, consider self fortunate in the over all 'what one could be addicted to' realm.
Best to be addicted to nothing...but if you are, there are steps one can take to back out of these addictions, but it does take will power, you're own, not even Gods, but your own.
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Post by X factor on May 22, 2014 18:52:05 GMT -5
Chewing Tobacco, the non cool addiction
Tobacco is not a glam or Hollywood type of addiction, it's more of a silent addiction, and not a very cool one, but one that inflicts millions.
And I think tobacco addiction, or snuff or chewing tobacco is more sinister in it's grip and power over an induvisual, than even alcohol.
But get this, tobacco infects person more like a virus or parasite, in that it takes over the mind, and creates a craving for, but doesn't alter behavior like alcohol does.
So the user of tobacco feels they're in control of substance, when substance is actually silently taking over control of them, the user.
Alcohol use is more like a Bronco horse, you know when to get off of it, but tobacco use is more like a cold, that infects you initially, gives you out word symptoms, but then incubates deep inside body, mind, bloodstream, and remains quiet, slowly taking control over money, you're not spending up ward to $140.00 a month on Chew, and if cigarettes, that number obviously goes up a bit or a lot.
But it's done incrementally, so it's not noticed, and is justified, since after all all it is is a 'dip' or 'smoke'...and such a better alternative to drinking.
Not.
Tobacco is a silent killer, alcohol is just the more obvious and blatant one.
But trying to let go of tobacco is a lot harder than booze.
And of course length one was addicted has a lot to do with how body reacts when suddenly denied.
At this point your body physiologically desires it, more than you do.
The very cells in your body scream for it, even though your mind doesn't.
As if the elements of the tobacco have fused with certain organs in your body, and as if your bodies production of certain 'chemicals' has come to depend on tobacco stimulation, like a co-opt or partnership.
And 'Dern' if you're going to get in the way of that.
Ending the addiction to alcohol is more of a mental one, but the addiction to tobacco is more of a chemical bonding one, and has a much tighter group on thy soul, but it's just not as obvious since tobacco doesn't effect behavior like alcohol, so the addictive just don't notice how addicted they are, until they try to quit.
Then, and only then will tobacco rear it's ugly head and horns, as all the chemicals contained within it, that are added, will refuse to let you go quietly.
More to follow...in fact Tobacco addiction actually needs it's own section.
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Post by X factor on May 25, 2014 8:22:03 GMT -5
Whether Alcohol or tobacco, one often sits around waiting to 'get into a mood' that alcohol or tobacco can get you in.
But when you obstain from both, you have to generate your own mood through other means, the way a rabbit in nature does. Just through happy thoughts.
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Post by X factor on Aug 10, 2014 19:27:59 GMT -5
The Dr Jekyll Mr Hyde syndrome of drinking personalities
The Dr Jekyll Mr Hyde syndrome associated with drinking, or any other substance abuse or mis use.
When you drink, not sure if it brings out a different personality or simply magnifies the one you already have.
It's probably different with everyone.
Like the movie pictured above, two people can take a potion and it might effect them in slightly or radically different ways.
Either way, the more you drink, the more another or other personalities seem to creep out of you.
Sometimes in a good way, and sometimes in a bad way.
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Post by X factor on Oct 7, 2014 18:28:37 GMT -5
I think alcohol will always be a seductive trap for manySince no ones life is perfect, most come home tired, spent, depressed, and alcohol is the most readily, legal, available liquid drug tool there to help change mood and outlook around. But it's still a trap, no matter how you look at it it's a trap...  It's not the only drug trap though, many are hooked, addicted to prescription drugs, mood altering drugs prescribed by doctors or acquired elsewhere. There's many legal drug traps that people can get hooked on, but still alcohol is the most readily available, no subscription needed. When drunk you make silly decisions, talk to people you shouldn't, delay important tasks. And even put of doing new things, cause it's more important to come home and drink. Alcohol is a trap. Some people are better at managing it than others, some are good with just one beer, one glass of wine, one this or one that, but others cannot stop, some just have a all or none mentality, either want to get drunk, or don't drink at all. Getting buzzed can be like a tease, so an addictive type wants to go past the buzz feeling into state of not caring about anything. Alcohol is a trap. Always remember that and there's always hope.
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Post by X factor on Dec 1, 2014 20:18:58 GMT -5
I drink why?1. Cause life, the reality of life, the ugliness of life scares me, there is no comfort in reality 2. Cause I'm lonely, alone, need a friend, alcohol helps me to forget I'm a lone. 3. It relaxes my nerves, calms me down...and in a way keeps me 'sober'. 4. To hide 5. Cause maybe if, when, I die, I'd rather die drunk, than sober. 6. Like the wild rebellious side that comes out when drunk. I drink why?7. Forget about past failures. 8. I like the buzz 9. My fear goes away when drunk 10. Cause I've lost my way. Why do people drink in excess? And why are some able to stop? Love, being accountable to someone?, God, religion? It's easier to stop drinking when surrounded by love, than when surrounded by nothing. 
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Post by X factor on Dec 12, 2014 19:56:26 GMT -5
When you have a bad bug
When you're sick with the flu, strep throat, or both or ect, it makes you not want to drink cause you already feel like you have a hangover just from effect of being sick.
Hardly anyone drinks the morning after, after waking up with throbbing headache.
And when sick, that what it feels like, like you've got a hangover but caused by cold virus instead of alcohol.
So you just sit, or lay, with no way to make things interesting.
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