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Post by X factor on Dec 17, 2023 12:13:29 GMT -5
The thing about having Sunday as your first day off, is that everything of business or connected to the government is closed, so what I usually end up doing is drinking, to kill or fill the time, but then Monday rolls around, things are open, but I have to much of a hang over to care, and so Monday ends up being a wasted day.
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Post by X factor on Dec 17, 2023 12:17:17 GMT -5
And I can't just have one or two beers, I can't stop there, that would be like building up speed, then slowing down with plenty of track left.
I'm the type, that I have to keep drinking until I go to bed.
I mean what's the point of getting buzzed, then stopping?
That puts you like in a odd physiological spot.
'Coming down', is something I'd rather do when sleeping, than when awake, cause that 'coming down' off of being drunk, to me, is a awful feeling.
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Post by X factor on Dec 24, 2023 16:39:47 GMT -5
If I'm not going to drink, than I don't really need to go out to the store, or get dressed, which means I won't be having any kind of xmas meal tomorrow, instead probably eggs, and warmed up salmon steak.
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Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2023 17:32:24 GMT -5
The holidays is an easy time to booze up, especially if unhappy, depressed, angry.
But sometimes it's best to say no to booze.
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Post by X factor on Jan 2, 2024 12:50:14 GMT -5
Nothing worse than getting drunk, then start flirting with your older cousin through text messages...
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Post by X factor on Jan 15, 2024 21:44:22 GMT -5
Amazing how different you can be when drunk, compared to when sober, like night and day.
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Post by X factor on Jan 24, 2024 13:49:21 GMT -5
This is the kind of stuff you do when you're drinking or drunk, is why you shouldn't drink or get drunk
Stay away from booze, booze just makes you act odd.
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Post by X factor on Jan 28, 2024 1:30:33 GMT -5
 I need to stop drinking for a while, I think body has reached it's limit. I think I over did it last week. Muscle pain came back, lower back was stiff and sore, could barely walk upright and proper do to back discomfort (almost back to normal now) But I just think, know, when drink to much or to many days in a row, body begins to break down. Life is much more fun (even when things are going wrong) when healthy. About twice a year, I just get to that point where I know I must stop drinking. Drinking has cost me a lot, over the years; has revealed a lot to me, but has also cost me a lot as well. |
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2024 18:56:50 GMT -5
It's Monday  It's Monday, and I feel, oh so, not so good, morally that is. I drank beer yesterday, to much, and wow, today, it just shifted my mood. Alcohols no good for me anymore. It's almost like I want to die or something, cause I know it's not good, yet I drink anyways as a alternative to not being able to hide from my current reality. Everything changes as you age, your body handles booze differently than when younger, I know mine does. I just need to stop. So many are dying now, who are younger than me, yet I drink, at times, yet still in decent health. I need to stop drinking for my own sake. Drinking is making me make irrational decisions when drunk, obligations I can't afford, and making me shirk other responsibilities. Oh well, at least I haven't drank anything today, that's a start.
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Post by X factor on Feb 3, 2024 0:37:24 GMT -5
My mood, outlook, is improving since a few days back.
Alcohol can really distort your mood, your outlook, and make things seem way worse than they are.
When I stop drinking, I always start feeling better; not that things are better, but I just feel better, and not as hopeless and dire.
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Post by X factor on Mar 18, 2024 22:31:59 GMT -5
I was doing good on my sobriety path, then caved in tonight...so tell you what, after I post this, going to drain in sink any open cans of beer, and toss unopened cans into the river behind my place.
I'm sick of drinking...OK...sick of it, and how it hearts my mental health and potential to be such a more productive person.
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Post by X factor on Mar 18, 2024 22:41:00 GMT -5
⬆️⬆️⬆️ Continued from above
OK, just tossed all beer into the river or down the sink.
I'm just tired of it...tired of being made a fool by booze...I'm done....we shall see.
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Post by X factor on Mar 20, 2024 20:37:32 GMT -5
Trying to stop drinking, again, and as usual, I always do feel better about myself, life, and the future when I don't drink.
I have more energy throughout the day, and as such much more productive, so you'd think I'd never drink again, but eventually always do.
Also, unemployed at the moment, may apply for unemployment money, not sure, but may as well, all the years I've worked and paid into it.
All the money our government is sending to Ukraine, to pay their pensions, and Israel, and dozens of other nations with their hands out, and now Haiti as well.
Anyways, I'm sober tonight, and glad...I was out though, and could of bought some beer on the way out, but this time I didn't...I was enjoying the feeling of being sober and actually having sustained energy well into the evening.
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Post by X factor on Apr 22, 2024 8:14:56 GMT -5
Being drunk really made me behave like a utter fool yesterday.
I was home, but you can do plenty of self damage to self just through texting or emails, or even phone calls.
I was way out of line.
I'm enrolled in a school, and dam, why did I have to let my drunkenness spill over into that arena of my life.
Can I ever repair that moment?
I came off as a spoiled arrogant grown brat...how embarrassing.
Now, will go workout, to punish myself.
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Post by X factor on Apr 22, 2024 14:55:44 GMT -5
Being drunk really made me behave like a utter fool yesterday. I was home, but you can do plenty of self damage to self just through texting or emails, or even phone calls. I was way out of line. I'm enrolled in a school, and dam, why did I have to let my drunkenness spill over into that arena of my life. Can I ever repair that moment? I came off as a spoiled arrogant grown brat...how embarrassing. Now, will go workout, to punish myself. Continued from above... Turns out I made more of a big deal out of yesterday night than others did....funny how that works. When I woke up this morning, I totally felt that I had cut bridges, to those at this new film school I'm attending (apprentiship/hands on type of school, not traditional classroom stuff) But turns out, everything is good, no beef, I didn't get fussed out or warned, nada, nothing. Well, either way, lesson learned, and that is when drunk or drinking, do not mix that state with anything official. |
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