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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2016 1:45:06 GMT -5
Billions have died before, but doesn't mean you want to
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2016 1:50:01 GMT -5
There is nothing beautiful, gratifying, comforting or dignifying about a natural death
I'd rather die by medically assisted suicide than to sit and wonder night after night when your heart will fail and stop.
I'd rather die by assisted suicide than wondering how painful it will be when your bodies systems shut down, and you're gasping for air, as body reflectively fights to stay alive.
What's dignifying about that?
People who are against assisted suicide are monsters, and have never been alone when death comes a knocking at thy door.
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2016 1:54:35 GMT -5
I'd much rather be humanely put to sleep like an animal
Odd how animals are allowed 'humane' deaths, yet humans are forced to die naturally like animals.
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2016 2:02:46 GMT -5
Sleep is normally fun, until
Sleep is normally fun, comforting, until you run into 'death sleep', a sleep that grabs you so deep you can't and won't wake up from it, then sleep becomes terrifying.
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2016 2:07:36 GMT -5
Hell isn't what occurs after death, hell is what occurs to your mind and body during the acquisition from life to death
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2016 2:15:21 GMT -5
It is only when you're truly alone, unloved and uncared for, that you realize God is not everywhere, or Omnipresent
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Post by X factor on Feb 4, 2016 16:56:53 GMT -5
Feel very drowsy right now, death sleep is encroaching into the day now, before night.
What does it want?
Almost just want to give in.
Tired of resisting.
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Post by X factor on Feb 5, 2016 22:00:10 GMT -5
I think death will play with me again tonight
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Post by X factor on Feb 5, 2016 22:03:55 GMT -5
If there is a god, he or it, sure isn't comforting me right now.
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Post by X factor on Feb 25, 2016 19:35:15 GMT -5
When you think, or feel, medically feel you're about to pass, whether imagined, or misinterpreted or not, everyone around you starts seeming like ghosts. If you walk into a store, and feel your heart may stop at any minute, that you may black out, everyone around you seems as a ghost. Nothing long term matters anymore, you just start imagining how you'll look laying on the ground. But you do start noticing potential in others, especially if you know them, their youth, their life, and you start projecting yourself through them, their energy, their future, wishing you could do it all over again, only better, with more sharper clarity when it still mattered. When the graveyard starts creeping in on you, your outlook starts to change.  |
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Post by X factor on Mar 14, 2016 20:45:52 GMT -5
Seems to always start with not feeling well before bed
I guess of all the ways to go, going in sleep isn't so bad.
But if you think you're not going to wake up if fall asleep, the anxiety of falling asleep can be bad, cause you only get more sleepy as you try not to fall asleep.
You notice things much more when alone.
When alone there is no one to check on you, to call 911 for you, to revive you, it's like one and done and you're gone.
Everything frozen as you left it, and as they'll find it.
I'm sleepy, going to bed now.
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Post by X factor on Mar 16, 2016 20:02:25 GMT -5
Beware of strong pesticides in food
Sudden death is better than being teased with it night after night after night.
Beware of pesticides and other harmful chemicals in produce.
Can have same repressive respiratory effect on humans as do on insects.
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Post by X factor on May 15, 2019 22:09:01 GMT -5
Anyone who says death is fun, or relaxing, is a joke or out right lying
Anyone who says death is fun, or relaxing is a joke or out right lying.
Nothing fun about death or dying, either in the physical or mental or spiritual realms.
Beware of the 'death sleep'...which is different from normal sleep.
Only a few will get that.
A few that were strong enough to resist the 'death sleep'....which is an exit from this world.
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Post by X factor on Oct 15, 2021 23:08:35 GMT -5
I had one of these, again, the other night, and feel I could have the same tonight.
'Soul Snatchers' is what I call the sensation.
It's when you wake up, your body makes you wake up, as if knows if you don't, will be pulled into a very dark deep sleep where your respatory system and everything else just shuts down.
I think it's caused by bacterial infection.
Who knows, cause I never go to the doctor, and not sure what could cause it in others.
I just know you wake up, your body gives you that chance at least, but then once awake, you can feel that super deep sleep trying to make you go to sleep again, but it's not like regular sleep, it's to 'deep', and you can tell, almost like Freddie Kruger trying to pull you in for a one way trip.
Hard to explain unless gone through it.
And I suspect this is the time, those who are on drugs, pass away, cause they're to sedated to respond to body trying to 'scare you awake'.
And the mind, your body, can do it in varies ways, a snake attack in your dream, or anything else that will startle you enough to awaken.
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Post by X factor on Feb 1, 2022 4:17:39 GMT -5
I thought tonight was that moment where I pass from this world, had a medical scare, so much so still keeping self awake.
Not sure what to do, been writing other places about it, all written out now.
Medical visit, costs, VA, this that.
About my emotions, how I felt and feel right now as far as death itself?
Zero emotions, the what happens after I do pass, doesn't concern me in the slightest bit, what concerns me is all the before death stuff, the pain, the hospital costs, the man side of the equation of the dying process is what troubles me more so than the 'god' side of death.
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