Soul Snatchers (Pre Death Sensations)

Now today I feel 'fine', after last two nights feeling like I was a gonner, why is that?

I always reverse engineer things, habits, diet, ect

Last two days I was at work, a job I despise, a stressful job, industrial job, so to speak, noise, ect.
(will spare the details of job)

And when 'out there', I tend to eat junk food more than I do when at home.

When out, tend to like pull into trael stores that have fried deli food, where they like deep fry okra, chicken, cat fish, and whatever else is on display, transfat grease?

I think it's something in the deep fried grease.
Cause yesterday, on the way in, ate sweets, as in twinke from Hostess, and the one covered in rasperry goo.
I junked out, didn't care, since I figured i was doomed anyways....but I did not eat fried deli, yet feel better today...hmm

I think it has to do with fried deli...not the food that was fried, but rather what it was fried in.

In fact, I think that's it, cause I get same reaction when use to eat pizza, prepared at those same places.
So yes, I think it's an ingredient they put in publicly served food, that cause body to want to shut down.

I even had two _____ last night, and still feel better.
I feel like I just emerged from an emotional storm.
Very odd.
Man is trying to k___ us with what they put in our food, or what they lace our foods with these days.
You have to be so very careful about what you eat these days.
I'm like my own doctor, I simply pay attention to my own habits.

If I were like most, I would have wasted 1000's of dollars going to the doctor everytime I feel faint or sickly, where doctor would just guess at what was wrong, charge me, give me some drugs to take ect.

The only expert on my body is me.

Trauma doctors are really the only important doctors out there, as in the ones who sew you back up when get in an accident.

Nutritionest are more important than doctors, or at least equally as important.

Our bodies are their own doctors if give them what they need to heal.

I kind of envy those who just die instantly in a blast, cause they don't have time to ponder anything.

⬆️⬆️⬆️ Continued from above

I'm trying to look back and see what was going on in life back then that isn't now.
Diet, stress level?, drinking vs not drinking?

I don't see that much of a change.
I think it had to do with allergic reaction to certain foods, or grease in certain store bought deli food.
I'm just not sure, cause I've started eating deli food again, and no noticeable side effects.

And I never go to the doctor, so never quite know what it is or was, I mean had I gone to the doctor, I'd simply be out of 500 dollars or more, just for my body to recover, as it did on it's own, with me making some adjustments to my diet at the time.

I also swore off 'sauces', but have caved in on that again.
I just think the less artificial food chemicals you have running through your body, the better.
So actually, reading this stuff again, may remotivate me to get strict on my diet again.
We shall see.