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Post by X factor on Feb 11, 2022 22:56:07 GMT -5
Tonight is going to be rough for me as well.
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Post by X factor on Feb 11, 2022 22:59:01 GMT -5
This guy looks like they're dealing with a 'soul snatcher'...wow  See how they clutch their heart or chest area. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 11, 2022 23:25:44 GMT -5
This guy looks like they're dealing with a 'soul snatcher'...wow See how they clutch their heart or chest area. |
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Post by X factor on Feb 11, 2022 23:27:43 GMT -5
Soul snatchers are more like locksmiths, in that they gain entry into your body, and wreak havoc from the inside out.
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Post by X factor on Feb 12, 2022 6:48:41 GMT -5
Some say, some think that we're assigned, or better yet, we're taken by certain entities of the other world, almost like going to the dog pound and adopting a pet.
Well some say or think that once born we're adopted by a spirit, and depending on the nature of that spirit or our relationship with it, will depend on how our life goes.
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Post by X factor on Feb 12, 2022 6:51:22 GMT -5
Some spirits have a violent nature, other spirits are more soxual in their nature, other spirits are very mischievous, some are angry, sad, inventive, they run the whole gauntlet of the behavior or passion spectrum.
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Post by X factor on Feb 12, 2022 7:00:21 GMT -5
And some spirits are very jealous and posessive of 'you', like a spouse would be, some spirits want you all to themselves, forever, and don't want to share you with no one. It's why you life will be calm, in relative decent health, until your assigned spirit senses you're trying to stray from it (assuming you have a jealous spirit), and if you do have a jealous spirit that likes you, as soon as another person comes into your life, bad things will either happen to them or you.  |
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Post by X factor on Feb 14, 2022 0:21:58 GMT -5
It's going to be a stressful night.
Feel like it's a 60/40 that I'll make it.
Or have to dial 911 which would ruin everything and change the course of my life.
I don't need that crap.
But am I brave enough to just let darkness swallow me up?
It's being toyed with that I don't like, cause soon you lose your nerves.
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Post by X factor on Feb 14, 2022 1:46:03 GMT -5
Is the Zone the only place on the planet that talks about a 'deadly sleep'?
That is a sleep that if give into it, you're a gonner.
Experts don't know crap, all the google searches are the same.
No one talks about a condition that if your heart or diaphram to weak, do to infection or ect, that if fall asleep, won't wake up.
No one talks about that in medical field, only the Zone dares to talk about stuff 1st person form rather than stupid online journals.
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Post by X factor on Feb 14, 2022 9:19:27 GMT -5
I made it through the night, not sure how to feel.
It's like when flirting with death, or think that you are, nothing else really matters, everything just slows down, priorities change, my tempurment has become flat.
When faced with death night after night after night, from the 'soul snatcher' and or snatchers, it does kind of mellow a person out.
It's a humbling experience for sure.
Most only go through the death sensation once, and it's done, now imagine going through that sensation multiple nights in a row.
It's like being being hurled towards a cliff, creature is about to toss you over the cliff, wound up to throw you off the cliff, then changes mind at last second....just to do it again to you a bit later.
Anyways, I made it through the night, and am humble.
Now, what shall I do with my humility?
But I'm sure as soon as I feel better I'll become cocky again.
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Post by X factor on Feb 14, 2022 10:24:47 GMT -5
The soul snatcher or snatchers, help me to realize I am nothing  It's not so much what I am to others, or how I want others to perceive me, or respect me (that's flesh) What these episodes with the soul snatchers want or have allowed me to see about 'me', or how I perceive self, is that I am nothing. I am dust that is bound together through electromagnetism, and once that electricity that runs through my, our, bodies stop, we stop, and then dissolve back into nothing. So, what am I to take from that? How will that reality about self change or influence my behavior going forward? The decisions I make? or how I relate to others and or treat others? Not sure. Probably not at all. Everyone would have to come to the same conclusion about self all at once in order for anything to change. But if only one person comes to conclusion about self out of billions, than nothing will change, ever. It can only change within, and that's about it.
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2022 7:56:55 GMT -5
I did wrestle last night a bit with mortality  It's a weird feeling thinking you're on the edge of life, and the edge of obliteration at the same time. It feels like laying on the beach as the tide moves in. The water rises just enough to make you have to hold your breath as to not drown. This can last for hours or 30 minutes, the game of will the water reside or continue to rise. But then suddenly or gradually the water resides, and you can breathe normally again, for a while. But it's only a matter of time before the tide rises again, and next time will you be healthy enough to hold breath long enough to not drown during high tide? It's like a torture game that goes on. It's like a game the torture 'gods' enjoy watching as they eat popcorn and wonder 'Will they make it this time', is their will to live strong enough, and or is their health strong enough to respond to their will? I'm healthier than I should be, so I'm able to withstand the high tide of mortality that comes to smoother me at times, but think of those who aren't healthy enough to fight off the grip, the pull, of mortality. Nightly, daily, we read about such types in the news, or in the mortuary part of the newspaper. (It's been ages since I've read the mortuary section in any newspaper) Anyways, did have another slight scare last night, but look, behold, I'm still here. 
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2022 8:04:37 GMT -5
People really should think about writing their own obituaries themselves, before they pass  Me myself and I, do not want some dull obituary like this to summerize my life to others who happen to read it. I want my obituary to be a bit sarcastic, funny and witty. People really should think of writing their won obituaries before they pass rather than letting it be written by a stranger.
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2022 8:12:34 GMT -5
Why am I still here? Cause I keep listening to my body
I'm still here cause I keep listening to my body and making adjustments.
Many people do not listen to their bodies.
If you listen to your body, your body will say 'stop doing this', 'stop eating that'.
Your body will say 'quit that job, that job is stressing your mind and body out to much'.
Your body will say to you 'leave that relationship, that relationship is stressing your heart out, causing your stress'.
Your body will tell you, if you listen to 'Stop eating food with 'that' ingredient in it, stop using sauce, period, that has chemicals in it that attack your immune system as you age'.
Your body is constantly telling your things, 'stop drinking', 'stop smoking', 'stop doing drugs', 'stop speeding in traffic' and so forth.
But many or most do not listen to their bodies.
Well, I do listen to mine. I don't listen to any doctor, I just listen to my own body.
By listening to my body, I can maybe squeeze out a few more healthy years, maybe and hopefully.
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2022 19:25:55 GMT -5
I want to eat, but am afraid to, cause lately seems when I eat, I have no idea what effect it'll have on my body, as in triggering that 'soul snatcher' sensation where body just wants to shut down.
I bought some turkey lets, but to afraid to eat it, but may boil and cook it anyways and just not add anything.
I think it's when I eat stuff that's laced with man made flavoring, is where issues arrive.
Typing this has made me hungry, been starving self all day, cause I really do fear the soul snatchers.
I thought I was getting better, but I don't know now.
Going to the doctor will cost a lot of money, then what if they tell me something I can't fix without spending 10,000 or more dollars, then what?
Then there's no chance of me ever relaxing in life if have to spend the rest of my healthy years paying back medical bills.
i mean if nature wants to take me, fine, but I'm not fine with being teased by nature night after night.
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