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Post by X factor on May 13, 2022 22:23:52 GMT -5
The soul snatcher or snatchers are back, I sure hope I make it through the night.
Already trying to grab my soul.
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Post by X factor on May 16, 2022 23:40:02 GMT -5
I feel much better now, sometimes you have to be your own doctor, figure things out on your own.
Not sure why so many people brainwashed and socially trained to worship doctors, to run off to the doctor for the slightest this or that.
And many times, body just heals itself, and it just seems like the medication or anti cold stuff is, when the body would of healed itself naturally if eat right and take natural herbs and all.
If I had ran to the doctor, over the last decade, for all the times I thought I was sick, doomed and or dying, I'd have student loan type of medical bills.
But I didn't, I simply learn to listen to my own body, and not just listen but adjust my diet as needed and other things.
If people would stop feeding the medical industry with so many visits, prices would go way down.
I've even learned how to make natural antibodies from stuff you can buy at the grocery store.
Things are ancestors all knew, that most of us have forgotten...now it's just rush rush to the doctor, cause 'The Doctor will take care of everything'...screw that.
Double screw that.
If I'm going to die, I'm going to die, and I don't need the medical industry taking all my money before I do.
I don't know any doctor that has given anyone eternal life.
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Post by X factor on May 23, 2022 11:29:04 GMT -5
Practically cursed G-d last night  I felt like Lt Dan, from the movie 'Forest Gump', when he's up there on sail boat cursing g=d and the weather and saying 'bring it on!' As if to say kill me or let me live. Well that's how I felt yesterday night, i felt like kill me or let me live! And was, am, tired of this half way or quarter stuff. And being in pain will do that to you, pain will rob you of your energy, your creative energy, and rub you the wrong way after a while. And you get to a point where you get tired of praying, begging, asking, while others don't have to. You get tired of always feeling or being told 'It's something you did'...type of BS. Or the whole 'It's gods will that you go through pain and discomfort' BS. I was just tired of it yesterday. I just wanted to either die or live, rather than living while feeling like you could die night after night. You should only have to die once, not 100's of times a year. Anyways, today's here. Screw soul snatchers.
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Post by X factor on May 23, 2022 20:11:23 GMT -5
I feel like I have a 50/50 chance of making it through the night.
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Post by X factor on Jun 23, 2022 19:51:24 GMT -5
I really need to branch this section off into 'pain', parasites, junk food, and nerve paralysis, they're all connected
Junk food being one of the main culprits in it all.
If you read the chemical ingredients in junk food, which at times read like bomb components, and you think of all the chemicals in foods people blend together as they eat, and really have no idea how these chemicals merge in the body.
Like say you eat a
1. Hostess Ding Dong
2. Bag of Ruffles potato chips
3. Any sweet drink at the store
And then say you took a pain medication earlier Aspirin or ect.
Then eat a hamburger from a fast food place, and fries and continue all day long, well you body has a whole vat of chemicals astir on the inside, all being broken down at the same time, all going through your liver, hobbitneys, gallbladder ect, no telling what kind of a toxic mix of chemiclas are running through your veins that later at night could effect your respatory system or heart, or brain, and or joints.
Then add alcohol to that, or tobacco if you smoke, or even drugs, if you do drugs.
It's no wonder so many people are having medical issues.
First step, stop eating processed foods (if that easy people would of stopped long ago)
Processed foods, sugary drinks, almost worst for you than alcohol is, but in a different way.
And then you have fetynal working it's way around society now, thanks to a open boarder, that's finding it's way into all kinds of communities, college campuses, rural areas and urban areas alike.
Gotta be smart about what you put in your body.
To be continued as time allows.
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Post by X factor on Aug 19, 2022 0:52:19 GMT -5
That odd sensation again, haven't had it in a while.
I always retrace what I ate last, and what I ate last before laying down was some old grapes in fridge, that I remember having a heavy taste of pesticide on them, is why they've been in there so long.
So is that what it is, pesticides from produce?
But here's the thing, you have some people on the streets that dabble in hardcore drugs for years, and years, and years, yet they never die, and their hearts never stop...so how could my body be so sensitive to pesticide residue on grapes, yet other peoples bodies on the streets can handle hardcore drugs for years, and they never get visited by the soul snatchers?
So, it's got to be something else.
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Post by X factor on Aug 19, 2022 0:56:00 GMT -5
It's almost like I'm frustrating whatever it is that keeps trying to 'take me', in that as of now, at least, I'm a tad bit to healthy for body to succumb to whatever.
I'm just to fit and healthy, and it's as if whatever it is that would like to 'take me', is frustrated by that, and so instead of passing on, I simply get that 'soul snatcher' sensation and wake up, sit up, and then write about it as I am now.
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Post by X factor on Aug 19, 2022 1:21:41 GMT -5
Sometimes wish I had the digestive track of a hyena, cause hyena's are immune to just about anything, bacteria, viruses ect, they have to be since they scavenge and often eat dead animals, or dying animals, that are diseased, have worms, and other gross inflictions.
But hyenas are immune to just about everything nature can through at them cause they scavenge.
Yet we humans just eat on bad apple or steak, and our bodies go nuts.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 0:46:14 GMT -5
The soul snatchers are back.
As I was laying down moments ago, thoughts in head were like..
'What is the cure? The cure is to ___'
So now I'm up, and microwaving popcorn, cause another inner voice told me to do so.
Maybe to offset the soul snatchers.
Tonight, they almost had me, or so it felt.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 0:52:47 GMT -5
it's like the sensation of passing out while asleep, only you know if you do, you won't wake up.
I wonder if that's the sign of a weak or diseased heart?
Only there's no pain involved.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 0:53:59 GMT -5
I mean heck, if this is how ____ comes, maybe that's not so bad, no pain, just the sensation of being sucked into a super deep shut you down forever type of sleep.
Isn't that how most people say they want to go?
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 6:37:48 GMT -5
I mean heck, if this is how ____ comes, maybe that's not so bad, no pain, just the sensation of being sucked into a super deep shut you down forever type of sleep. Isn't that how most people say they want to go?
Fasting, if can, to me is the best way to rid body of all and any substances that could be causing whatever, and then to simply start over from scratch, assuming issue hasn't progressed to badly.
Now days, no telling what they put in foods, could be eating perfectly fine, but like buying deli from a travel store, ect, no telling what they use in the food, what type of grease, additives, whatever.
Food scientist are always tinkering around with food, flavoring, coloring, ect, they'll test it out on a few mice, then the FDA will approve it for human consumption (Gee, I wonder why, couldn't be bribes, no way)
Or even fruit, the pesticides they use, and one batch of grapes could be free of pesitcide, yet the next batch soaked with it.
Unless able to grow own food in garden, most of us are at the mercy of the food industry.
And or even vitamins ordered from Amazon, stuff that comes from China, or who knows where.
Staying healthy these days can be challenging at times, cause 'man' just keeps injecting more and more crap into our food and not telling us, for the sake of shelf life, or taste, or some other addictive flavoring or coloring.
And then the combo of all these ingredients can also sometimes trigger something not so good. |
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 22:08:19 GMT -5
The soul snatcher is trying to claim me even as I type this
I don't know, it hasn't been this bad ever, usually it occurs when already asleep, in bed and laying down in the dark.
Right now, lights on, sitting up, and can feel the gravity of 'it' trying to shut body down by luring me into a permanent sleep...one I will not be able to recover from.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 22:11:38 GMT -5
Coffee, caffeine?, nah.
Just grit and adrenaline...and if that's not enough, than oh well.
There's no pain involved, so...so, I don't know.
It just feels like being injected with anesthesia, like right before they operate on you, and trying to resist falling into a deep sleep that you won't be strong enough to wake up from.
and I'm alone, so if don't wake up, no one to wake me up.
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Post by X factor on Sept 23, 2022 22:14:22 GMT -5
Do I feel like praying?
Am I praying?
No
Do I have a fear of hell?
No
When I'm being pulled into darkness, there is no light, no feeling of evil, none of that, it just feels incredibly lonely though, but there's no sense of 'beings', either good or bad, just 'nature'.
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