I must admit I feel kind of defeated this morning....
But it's not that the world can ever really defeat 'you', us, or anyone else, rather we feel defeated when no longer inspired by current situation.
And you don't get there overnight, it's a long process to 'nothing'.
I've been unemployed for about a month now, you go through all the phases, happiness, freedom, boredom, worry, sorrow, uncertainty and more.
Then when start looking for job again, you realize there's really nothing else you want to do, cause all you're going to do is receive a token pay check, no matter how hard you work or grind, and as you get older you begin to realize this fact.
Yet companies want divine like loyalty to them, from you, for basically keeping you in same low income 'sect' your whole healthy life.
'Be loyal to us, for keeping you poor'...ye right, but that's the reality of it.
You get older and you begin to realize there is going to be no 'big break' moment, where someone with wealth notices you, and finances your dreams.
Yes, that does happen and occur, but usually to people already within the 'system', but rarely does it happen to non collegiate nobodies on the streets who live off of main street and Kybes behind a Walmart store.
I've gotta start looking for a job today, and I just don't feel thrilled about it at all.
The alternative is to go homeless, and I feel less thrilled about that...hmm
Like being stuck between bad and worse...
Life a 3'some adult film, and you're in the middle of bad and worse...