Sleep

You may not like me, you may judge me when encounter at store, but I sleep tonight knowing I hurt no one, ever, I sleep tonight with a clean conscious.

Can't sleep right now, and wish I could, cause have to get up later.

And when you're laying down, and can't sleep, it can be torture, cause your mind will take you places you don't want to go, your mind will take you to future and past scenerio's you cannot solve.
You can't solve the past, 'today'.

But when you can't sleep, you mind takes you to places of unease and contention.

Also, when you realize how few people have 'values', whether in power or not, but when you realize how few people have values, it can be alarming.

I mean even people who preach 'Jesus', are morally corrupt, and don't even see it, cause it's their own special interests they're really worshiping, and just replacing 'self' with the name 'Jesus'.

'Jesus loves me' = I love myself

'Without Jesus, you're going to hell' = If you don't do as 'I' say, conform to my taste, you're going to hell.

Throughout the maturing of America, not sure how Christians have made things any brighter for those considered outcasts.

Christians, churches, went right along with all the social evils of 'this nation', and sometimes, most of the times, were the ones leading current 'racial' or 'social' hostilities, right from the pulpit.

'Black people are evil, thus saith the Lord', or 'Gay people are wicked, thus saith the lord', 'Liberals suck, thus saith the lord', if you have long hair, your a sinner, thus saith the lord', interacial dating is evil, thus saith the lord', a woman shouldn't wear pants, thus saith the lord, native Americans are savages, thus saith the lord, and so forth.

Just about all the evils of this nation, in the past, can be attributed to men saying 'thus saith the lord'.

Not just here, but around the world as well.

And if Government hadn't stepped in and established 'rights' for all, there would be none.

This idea that our rights come from 'god' is hogwash, tell that to the former slaves, or tell that to the people of North Korea, or the millions who lived under brutal post colonial dictators of Africa, or the millions abused under Stalin and so forth.

We're only as free as whatever current Government or Kingdom allows us to be.

God has nothing to do with how free we are, not in this world anyways.

Right now, all my rights, liberties, come from a man made, a human crafted Constitution, and bill of rights, without those two, I'd be cattle.

Anyways, just trying to clear thy mind of thought so I can lay down and sleep.

I think this current virus is attacking the wrong people.

And because housing so expensive now, Hotels/Motels in cities, or anywhere now, simply attract the criminal class who live by cash.

And maybe crime would go down if the rich would stop consuming so many drugs, which the poor people fight on the streets all, or mainly do to drug trafficking, fighting over territory.

You have 'the black market' and 'the stock market', opposite ends of the economic scale.

Most pretend to have no idea though, how related they are to one another.

Day sleep is different than night sleep.

Hard for me to sleep straight through the day, it just is, so I have to break it up.

Sleep itself is weird.

Like if have to stay up all night do to job, seems no matter how much sleep you get during the day, you still go through drowsy period at night.

Also odd how one short 'power nap' can restore you better than caffeine can.

It's like a 'reset' button for your body or something.

One 15 minute power nap is like 2 or more cups of coffee, I find that odd, but in that 15 minutes, body able to restore whatever it has to internally, to make you alert again.

I took a power nap last night, and you know your in a power nap when able to 'dream' during that time, when you sleep deep enough to have dreams...will study the science behind that later when time allows.

OK, it's officially time for bed now...



Oh what a day, why do people gotta be violent?

I mean like what you read in the news, online, and see on TV.

What is it that people want in this world that makes them so violent?

I don't get it, that's why at least when bed time rolls around can just let all the news of the day drift away, and kind of relax, with Uzi next to bed.....just hobbitding.

If Jesus is going to come back they should of come back 500 years ago, what the heck they waiting on?, I mean how much more bloodier does the world need to get to triggers Jesus's return?

Makes no sense at all what so ever.

The last thing I want to believe is that the whole story of Jesus returning is yet another Hoax, like Santa Clause.

Anyways, time for bed, I will lay my behind down and rest, and pretend I live in the scene above, where everyone is sane.

Later and goodnight.

I couldn't sleep earlier, stayed up all night, this new job schedule has my awake and sleep time all over the map.

When I'm off, time doesn't even matter, I nap, doze off when feel like it, and when awake I get stuff done.

I like have a list of 30 things to get done, mostly minor stuff, micro stuff.

But having the time to scrub away, or get out of the way all the micro stuff takes long term stress off of you.

This new schedule allows me time to get all those little annoying micro stuff out the way, that you normally would not bother doing if worked a heavy schedule.