Moods

Moods



Moods, I tell ya.

Can go to bed feeling jubilant, then wake up the next morning feeling emotionally castrated, scared, hesitant, afraid to even get out of bed.

I think that's why people do drugs, is cause at times our own moods are so over the place, and I guess drugs are drinking at least takes people in a mood they can predict.

Well right now I don't drink, nor do I do drugs, so as a result am forced to face my moods.

Well I guess I do caffeine, as in coffee, and every now and then a 5 hour energy type suppliment, which isn't good for you, but I usually only take around 1/4 of it at once.

I think what would help my mood is if I could ever get some monetary success outside of my normal labor job.

That would improve my mood if I could just make some easy, legal, side money from a legit business, or from selling stuff, like shoes, clothing, anything.

But money just seems to run and hide from me, instead the only money I can earn is from my own labor, which is torture the older you get.

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Anyways, so far, today's mood just has me feeling a bit hopeless, like nothing I do or try will ever come to anything.

As if destined to be nothing forever.

I hope that mood changes soon, maybe some coffee will help it to change.

In a bit of a frustrated mood, cause it just seems everyone seems to drag.

No one ever (at least in my circle of people I know) wants to actually do stuff that matters.

And all that ends up happening is people get old and sick, that's it!

Act now, while it matters! dmt.

I have nothing to say right now, my current mood is inverted and only wants to concentrate on self.

I'm in a pretty decent mood for some reason

And yes, I drank last night, which normally means my mood the following day is distorted, but not this time.

I think it's do to weeks and weeks of me just cleaning my diet up, and taking herbs in the form of tea, and cutting other sugary drinks out of my diet.
It's a combination of things, and I guess that proves what we put in our bodies really does effect our moods, which also effects moral.

And I got this song here stuck in my head, by David Bowie, 'Modern Love'.



Maybe it's this song here that has some mood boosting element to it.
I was listening to this song last night while drinking and just couldn't get enough of it.

I've always known about David Bowie, but never a David Bowie type (When younger would get him and Billy Idol mixed up).

But ye, last night, it's like Bowies heart and soul touched me for the first time, through this song.
And I'm still feeling it today.

I'm in a decent mood, wow, even I'm surprised.

Probably what you really need is more rest.
The last few days have been long and hard, and humans, at least in the industrialized West, have been taught that to lay around and just rest is 'baaaaaad'. that if you rest half a day, and just do nothing, than you're lazy, according to western industrialized doctorine.

When in fact, rest is good, energy is not infinite, and the older you get the more rest you need, both the mind and body, so if you feel sluggish, it's for a reason, it's cause your body is not done resting.

My mood?

Hmm

It's one of those days/moods, that if there was a red button on a wall, and all you had to do was push it, and you'd disintegrate into nothing, in a painless way, I'd might do it.

I guess that's a sign of feeling like nothing matters anymore to me right now, or better yet I feel like my efforts no longer matter.

And that can only be based on already long lived and observed life patterns.

And maybe it's a sign of just not having anyone to confide in, usually confiding in others, another, makes you laugh, and helps put things into perspective, but when have no one to confide in, you tend to get tangled up in your own thoughts.

Regardless, just in a red button type of mood.
And I don't look forward to tomorrow, nothing bright about tomorrow for me, have to return to work, which is dread in and of itself, just another long drawn out lonely environment.

How can I fix this?, this mood...I don't know.

Moods are about momentum, and sometimes events from past days put you in current mood, and you cannot just reverse that mood instantly, not when alone anyways.
If loved, around people who love you, sure, then you can, but when alone, not so much.
Just have to let it play out, when alone.