Staying physically fit...and the challenges of.

It's very easy to fall into the trap of wanting to slowly destroy yourself, if and when you feel no one else cares

There's lot's of ways we can destroy ourselves slowly, drinking and drugs being among those ways.
Even prescription drugs, can be a slow way of destroying ourselves.

Also, overeating, not working out, eating junk food, smoking, and just over all reckless behavior, at home, and or even at work.

You usually have to have enough 'self love' to just one day look in the mirror, and say to self 'enough'.
I mean if you wouldn't bully or torture a animal or another human, than why mistreat yourself?...is what I say to self.

Here's the deal, those who don't like you, aren't going to like you more if you get sick...so F them....getting sick will not impress anyone at all.
To me, the best revenge is to stay physically healthy!, as much as you can anyways, and many of us age far ahead of our time do to not taking care of ourselves.

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I want my health back, not just my health but my looks also.
I just fell into like a slump, when returned from a trip, and life seemed grim.

And you know, when in bad shape, as in just eating and drinking all the time, it even effects your looks, your face, ect....and all that effects your over all moral, for who wants to look ugly to self?

So ye, like Rocky Balboa, I'm going to make a come back, not for others, but for myself.



It's never to late to leave the crowd behind...

Stimulate your brain, keep your memory strong, exercises



I gotta start doing more brain puzzles, and or I wonder if old fashion video games help with brain power and focus?

It's amazing how much doing housework and walking through airports just seem to wear you out extra.

I mean I can jog in the park, do pull-ups, stretch, fast walk, ect, and not feel as worn out and tired as I do when I do 20 minutes of tedious housework, or walk from terminal to terminal at a large airport...

My stomach has been feeling odd lately.
No pain or anything, just a bit bloated, or a bloated feeling.
I've stopped drinking, but it hasn't been a week yet, but want to see if that makes a difference.

Compared to other men of this earth, I realize I haven't really used my brains before, and if so, not in a very long time.
I haven't really learned anything new, invented anything.
I'm in a sort of school now, and not sure if I like it yet or not.
I measure everything by stress.
And right now I feel stressed cause I'm moving at the pace of the school program and not my own pace.

There's a lot of mental and physical habit I'm going to have to change, if I hope to make it through this period.
Basically my mind has been conditioned to be lazy over the years.
Coming on here and writing is a lot different than structured graded writing.

Suddenly, there's a lot more to the structure of my existance than just working a crummy job, coming home, and drinking when off.

As of right now, I don't feel happy about the decision I made and as of right now, if could quit, I would, but it's a 6-month commitment, and I've already paid.
And now the pressure is on to succeed.
What a fool I am, but that's what drinking does, it makes you make irrational decisions when drunk, but then you have to live by those decisions, comments, statements, promises, when sober.

The one good thing that could come out of this though, if nothing else, is if I just completely stop drinking.
Cause now, at this juncture in my life, drinking really no longer serves me.

Just looked at the clock, can't believe it's already past noon.
Feels like 9 am to me, my body clock and real time clock are just off right now.