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Post by X factor on Jul 10, 2023 13:36:13 GMT -5
It's Monday  dizzysissytheater.blogspot.com/Yep, it's Monday, I did some heavy beer drinking yesterday, and met up with someone whom not sure is good for me going forward, meaning their home life is a mess, and I don't need mess in my life. Also, power went out earlier, that sucked, and well, its just been a wet dampy day so far. Not sure how or if it can get better. I'm just glad I'm not working. And with that, it's time to get up and, hmm, get up and do what?...maybe cook some eggs. It's Monday. 
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Post by X factor on Jul 17, 2023 12:52:20 GMT -5
It's Monday  I need to get up and at least do something. I drank a lot yesterday night, and made phone calls, and as usual went overboard. But hey, when lack constant emotional and social substance in your life, what do you expect, it just all comes out at times after building up. So I sit in room, door shades drawn, with 4 fans aimed at me. Is this all there is to life now? I hope not.
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Post by X factor on Jul 31, 2023 19:50:31 GMT -5
It's Monday  It's Monday, I'm off, and I'm chillen and trying to heal. They wanted or asked if I wouldn't mind coming in today, on my day off, and I said 'screw that'. I've given enough of my life to the industry I'm in and career wise have gotten nothing in return except a empty hollowed out life. That aside, I'm off and enjoying every minute, second of it, of just being free, free to live without being under another's command. Employment is so overrated, you realize this more as you age. As you age, you're like 'wait, I've worked all my life and still pretty much impoverished?' And then what money you do have, the minute you fall ill, it's gone. Anyways, as I age, it's time, it's time that becomes like money to me. It's Monday, and I'm still here...wow.
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Post by X factor on Sept 11, 2023 17:05:29 GMT -5
Monday thoughts  It's been a terrible day for me, but I'm up now, sort of, and it's still light out. I guess I'll try to salvage what's left of the day...didn't really fall asleep until like 5 am this morning, a drinking night at home, just beer, but wow did it hit me odd. I don't feel very enthused or optimistic about much right now. I'd rather be happy and optimistic than sad, disappointed and bummed out. Sometimes you just have to change your whole mindset in order to be happy, like fake believe you're happy, when really not. Oh well, it's Monday, yet again, and I'm still here, the good, the bad and the ugly. ____________________ Aggressive ads, and other stuff, have really just made the internet a toxic place to be, is why I spend less and less time on it now.
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Post by X factor on Sept 25, 2023 11:11:19 GMT -5
It's Monday It's Monday, and I feel as ill equipped to deal with the world today, as I did yesterday and last week. I just don't have much to motivate me anymore. And even if I get my life right, the Biden admin gets other things wrong that effect my long term well being and peace of mind. That aside, my mind, brain, just feels scrambled right now, and unable to focus on anything that matters. I'm more like __ + going on 17 again. At least back then I had hope that things could and would get better, now, not sure what I have, in as far as the future goes. That aside, it's Monday, another day for the world to beat me up.
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Post by X factor on Oct 2, 2023 11:45:39 GMT -5
Monday is here, and I feel stranded within my own circumstances  It's Monday, and I feel defeated already, and still lingering around in bed. Everything seems uphill to me right now...yes, it's all in the mind, but the mind is everything. That aside, I need to get on with the day, whether I fail or succeed is up to fate, not really me, but fate.
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Post by X factor on Oct 9, 2023 12:40:59 GMT -5
Monday  I just can't get up and going today, haven't even got dressed yet, just been rolling around in bed doing whatever. So much happening around the world, i'm just glad where I stay it's relatively calm...law and order keep things calm, but even in the U.S. there are spots of social chaos. That aside, it's Monday, and I'm in neutral.
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Post by X factor on Oct 23, 2023 20:11:00 GMT -5
Oh my gosh, it's Monday!  Oh my gosh, it's Monday!! ugg! Oh well, every day I'm alive, it's usually the day that ends up atop me. I always seem to get beat up by life, period. I never seem to be able to make decisions that get me ahead in life, instead it's like my path in life is walking through mud, or quick sand. Anyways, that aside, I still try to maintain a fun loving spirit, for my own sake, more so than others. It's Monday...isn't there a football game on tonight, Monday night football?
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Post by X factor on Oct 30, 2023 10:36:18 GMT -5
Scared Monday It's Monday and I feel scared, scared of everything, including myself, and or my ability to handle pressure and fear put upon me by life. Also, fridge not working right, which means I have to call maintanance people, which means.. 1. I have to get dressed and groom (yuk) 2. I have to clean the kitchen 3. I have to clean the front room, and any other room that looks junky that they might see into. It's basically work, cause I'm the type, if come into my place, my place reflects me, and I don't like people coming in and seeing a messy place. ----------------- What a hassle. Then next week I've gotta travel, and super nervous about it, cause people are mean now, just look at the headlines. It seems everyone has 199 reasons to hate you now, I mean just for existing and bothering no one, people still hate you, or so it seems. And it doesn't help that a drank yesterday, stupid me, I should of known better, going that route never helps anything. ( By the way, I hate so called 'gun violence town hall forums, that some cities hold...why do I hate those? Cause everyone show up except those criminals actually committing the crimes and shootings on the streets, so what good do those 'gun violence' meetings have when those shooting people up don't attend those meetings? They're nothing more than 'feel good' 'rah rah' meetings for elected officials, what a waste of time...cause if want to stop shootings, than lock the shooters up, plain and simple) ------------------------------ Anyways, got a bit distracted there by the radio. It's Monday, I'm here, and well, hating the day so far.
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Post by X factor on Nov 20, 2023 11:22:17 GMT -5
It's Monday Maybe I'll eventually crawl out of bed, get dressed, and eat, and get on with the day. Just not feeling it so far.
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Post by X factor on Dec 4, 2023 11:54:10 GMT -5
It's Monday  It's Monday, and my life still feels sucky, at the moment. I drank yesterday, and as usual got loud and proud over the phone and probably made a fool out of myself, as usual, but so what...I don't mean anything to these people anyways, and if died today or tomorrow, not a single soul would show up to my funeral. Live while alive, if have to impress those around you, than you're around the wrong people. ------------------------- Anyways, I'm alive, and the day is here, so let me do something with it.
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Post by X factor on Jan 15, 2024 13:45:07 GMT -5
It's Monday, Dr King day, and I feel like $%##@* It's Monday and I feel like whatever. I drank to much yesterday, and then made reservations while drunk...(never do that) I wish the last part of yesterday were just a dream, but it wasn't....but may as well been, cause I was drunk. Anyways, today's here now, once I stop beating myself up mentally, maybe I'll get up and try to get a few things done. It's Monday.
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Post by X factor on Jan 29, 2024 19:25:42 GMT -5
It's Monday  It's Monday, but the holidays are long behind us. Also, seems prescription 'due' now bills always come at the worst time. It's near impossible to get ahead anymore, if a hourly worker, and older. Either that or you have to kill yourself, mind and body, by working so much and long that you have no energy for self when home....who wants that kind of lifestyle? I sure don't. But I'm going broke, slowly but surely, so now what? The future, my own future, just seems like hell to me right now.
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Post by X factor on Mar 25, 2024 22:14:14 GMT -5
Monday
Well the days about over, not much occurred.
Think I'll go do the dishes, then have some ice-cream and then, who knows.
When not working, my body clock does what it wants.
I'm hoping something good and life changing will happen soon, but with me, the pattern in my life has been that hope is always a m-raugh, or however it's spelled.
Hope of something grand occurring in my life is always like a good dream you wake up from right when something good is supposed to happen.
So until it happens, whatever.
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That aside, about to go do the dishes, and while in the kitchen, I wonder if my neighber will be starring at me through the window while in my underwear, like in this video.
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Post by X factor on May 6, 2024 12:50:55 GMT -5
It's mid-afternoon.
I drank late, slept in late, will get dressed now and head across town to studio.
I have to (I tell myself) to stay on track.
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