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Post by X factor on Aug 6, 2020 19:30:10 GMT -5
Very rare, in that 'Late night in the attic' actually extended into the morning and day.
Yes, very rare indeed, in that late night in the attic extended into the morning and throughout the day, why?
Cause followed above post, or should say things fell into place that way, basically no drama.
Stayed away from other peoples issues, kept media to a minimum, was happy with self, at healthy, and so forth.
I've also learned stay away from, don't ever think you can become friends with another, or people, who think you should be embarrassed of yourself....run from the plague from such types, they have nothing to offer you and you'll spend countless years trying to perfect yourself in 'their eyes', rather than your own eyes and heart.
And a lot of times, turns out, it's not that they aren't happy with you, but actually envious of your attitude and outlook on life.
Please be happy with yourself first and foremost (assuming you're a decent person and don't hurt others), but you know what I mean.
I mean if it's just a matter of style and taste, and others make you feel bad for that, or alienate you for that, screw them, don't ever try to build a foundation of people like that, who always make it seem there's something wrong with you, when there isn't.
Realize that sooner, rather than later, and save yourself years of self doubt.
Now that being said, yes, up till now, it's been a 'Late night in the attic' type of day, but soon must step out into the world, where conditions and environment beyond my control, where things occur randomnly and tempers flare easily.
Oh well, what can I do about it?...
At least the last 48 hours or so have been bliss....and I'll take that...later.
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Post by X factor on Nov 11, 2020 6:59:43 GMT -5
Late night in the attic  I really shouldn't be having a 'late night in the attic' moment right now, but I am, in that I feel oh so peaceful and at ease, and don't know if that's good or bad? It should be good, but nothing lasts, seasons don't last, moods don't last, moments don't last, is why you have to seize them when and while you can. I wish I could have more late nights in the attic moments, but they're hard to come by and always occur by randomness. Things have to be aligned just right I suppose. But right now, this is a late night in the attic moment for me.
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Post by X factor on Jan 18, 2021 21:05:40 GMT -5
A 'almost' late night in the attic moment A 'almost' late night in the attic moment, I say 'almost' cause, well, compare it to a dream, a good dream, but you just sense there's noise in the background that could wake you up any moment. And that's kind of how I feel now, I'm kind of in between late night in the attic, a perfect realm, state of mind and being and 'reality'. But close enough to post. ________________________________________________________ Late nights in the attic are very rare, becoming more rare, seems as of late, cause things have to be near perfect, things have to be very quiet, and one has to be removed enough from yesterday and tomorrow to be at peace with 'now'. And I'm kind of at peace with 'now', but not as good in the past...again, this is not a full late night in the attic moment. I do know fiscally I'm OK, no worries there for now, I do know have been off for a few days, maybe have 1 or 2 more days off, so right in the middle of 'peace'. Not getting much done either, and don't care cause don't have to, I mean we're all entitled to our 'hobbit in the room' adult moments. Like when a hobbit, living at home with parents, and in room, nothing really matters or mattered as long as door closed. Well it's the same when an adult, every now and then you want that 'nothing matters accept that doors are closed' moment. And when taking care of self, 'you' deserve that now and then. For life is hard, with small breaks to relax every now and then. Right now I'm not rich nor am I really poor, I'm just 'here', alive, concious and aware. It's quiet and peaceful at the moment and that's all that matters to 'thy body'. For like our pet dogs, or cats, our bodies cannot project ahead, our bodies just want us to be safe and healthy in the now, that's their job, our bodies that is. Our bodies aren't good or evil, our bodies, the cells within, simply programed to live, thus keep us alive. And right now 'alive' is my 'state'. And I'm OK with that as long as I just focus on the 'now'...this moment. And with that will conclude this partial 'Late night in the attic' moment.
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Post by X factor on Feb 22, 2021 5:05:36 GMT -5
This almost qualifies as a 'Late night in the Attic' moment, almost This almost qualifies as a late night in the attic moment, I say almost cause not really sure. But why it could be is the following. 1. It's quiet, socially quiet and physically quiet, thus my mind is clear. 2. There's enough separation from a few days ago, and enough between now and when have to leave place, in other words I'm smack dab in the middle of 'off time', no pressure, nothing, just 'now'. 3. Alone, happy and content, and content with being alone, at the moment, the key is to be alone without being lonely. And well, that's about it, but that's all I need, but I get that other nights, but it doesn't always lead me to 'the attic' where I'm happy with 'self', and where no one else's opinion of me matters. And where I feel that time is mine to waste and spend as I please. But these moments usually very short lived and disrupted by 'morning', or just the forward movement of time. So I cling to these moments when arrive, cause know how short they are, these late nights in the attic. And one more note, when in the attic you realize how 'nosey' the world is, both literally and figuratively (can't believe I spelt that right). When alone in the attic, you realize the things the world tells you to worry about, to think about, aren't important at all, but rather invented noise for industry. Our bodies oh so heal, when it's quiet and we just shut out, off, the noise. Be well, hopefully back soon to share another attic moment.
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Post by X factor on May 31, 2021 1:49:57 GMT -5
Almost a late night in the Attic moment, almost that is Like pearls, late nights in the attic are very rare, and you just cannot fake or force them.  Late nights in the attic means having enough distance between yesterday and tomorrow that you're basically floating in a realm of self creation, with no noise or interference. Yes, tomorrow will come, and the next day, but 'Late nights in the attic' are about those separation times, when nothing else matters but 'you' and 'now'. It's a time, a special time, that modern day industry and noise wants us to have less and less of. Man is very crooked. Christians always point towards some mythical 'beast' monster appearing in the future, but if Christians were wise they would realize it's 'man' who's the beast. For when you seek shelter from man, is when you're safe and all is still. Anyways, just wanted to grab this 'late night in the attic' while I could, cause they usually don't last very long and are so so very rare. Until next time be well and relax.
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Post by X factor on Jun 1, 2021 3:21:26 GMT -5
Could it be possible, two 'Late night's in the attic' so close together? Normally 'Late nights in the attic' are so rare that they come months apart, sometimes only a few times a year, but hmm, feeling a bit 'Late night in the attic' right now. What does that mean? It means I'm separated enough from earlier today, and still enough distant from tomorrow, for any of it to effect me in the 'now'. I don't have to work tomorrow so can sleep in until whenever. Late nights in the attic arrive when able to just separate self from the troubles of life long enough to just 'float' in the now, they are so rare and can go away quick, with one wrong errant thought, the attic mood can go away just like that. the trick kind of is to just focus on nothing, except maybe the beauty and void of space?  Anyways, I feel self being sucked out of this moment, and one thing about these moments, they cannot be forced. But I had the moment, and glad, now must move on.
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Post by X factor on Aug 31, 2021 16:43:06 GMT -5
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Post by X factor on Jan 11, 2022 22:36:49 GMT -5
Almost a 'Late night in the attack moment, not quite, but almost Almost a late night in the attack moment, but not quite, but.. Late night in the attic moments becoming more and more rare, so even when close to one now, I must 'act'. For those new, ahh never mind. Late night in the attic moments are just very rare and special, it's when today has evaporated and tomorrow doesn't yet exist. Hard to explain in words. It's a feeling, not a word. Nothing can bother you, cause you're free, not connected to anything. In this moment you're not male, female, black or white, gay or straight, blue or red, religious or atheist, you're just 'as is', conscious energy. Be well, this late night in the attack moment, so rare, is about to end now...but remember it please.
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Post by X factor on Feb 6, 2023 22:05:32 GMT -5
It's been a while 'Late night in the attack' moments last but a short time, so I have to hurry before my mood suddenly changes. But late night in the attic moments usually arrive, or come, when I'm for sure 'off' the next day, which means I get to sleep in, so no pressure. And they usually come when have been off for a few days, which I have. Not sure why I'm having a 'late night in the attic' sensation right now, but again, I need to act fast and write this cause these moments are becoming more and more rare, that is moments of contentment and happiness, or maybe not happiness, but just moments of, as I stated before, being content, where time just seems to stand still, where time seems to have stopped. Moments where it seems I'm the only one alive or left on the planet, as such all stress is gone. Life doesn't stress me out, it's the mechanisms of man that stress me out. Big industry stresses me out. Anyways, yes, this is a late night in the attack moment, and it's been months, maybe even over a year since I've had one of these, so ye, even I'm a bit surprised. And with that, be well, be content, and be happy, when and wherever you can. Not sure when this mood will bring me back here again, could be a whole other year, let's hope not.
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Post by X factor on Sept 21, 2024 16:55:31 GMT -5
Day time in the attack Not sure why, but I've just had not a 'night time in the attack', but a daytime in the attack blissful sleep, sleeping, laying in bed moment.The blissfulness followed me into my shallow dreams, where all was fine...and then slipped back awake again, like some kind of a blissful ride between both realms. And no, no drugs or booze or anything, just natural feelings, which makes it so odd, cause I shouldn't really be feeling that this right now. And you, I, know how rare these moments are, as of late, as of the last few years, so when experience one, I have to quickly ride it down before that blissful, happy for no reason moment, slips away. And it doesn't take much, eating something unhealthy, hearing noise outside, seeing something in a commercial or on the news...it's not hard to snap out of these moments. But this one wasn't expected, not during the afternoon time, and not while sober, and so many other uncertainties in my future right now...none the less, I found myself swept up by that blissful, peaceful, 'Late night in the attack moment'. Anyways, like cool cloud formations, moods, moments like this, don't last, and soon begin to drift apart...but just wanted to note it, as I usually do, when it does occur. Happiness, happy moments, when you just feel happy for no apparent reason,is just a weird phenomena, at least for me they are. Oh well, until next time...and hopefully next time won't be so long. After this will get dressed and head to the grocery store, which will put me around other people, other energy, traffic etc...doubtful I can maintain this cosmic joy once I leave my place. Good blissful day, regardless.
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