Depression, and the many layers of...

Depression and the many layers of

Many things can trigger depression, in non chemically depressed people

1. Doing the same thing over and over again, with no 'gain', no results, referring to work, income.

To work and labor for years, yet have no more saved up in bank account than homeless bum on the street.

2. Lack of being loved, feeling loved, or having another to love, such a reality for one can also trigger depression over time, especially if have 'values', and most people do, even 'ugly' criminal types have values, and need to be loved, even though they may not appreciate that love given to them, and or abuse those who love them.

3. Both of the above, combined with a sense of 'the end', or ones on mortality.

4. And add illness to the above, and a person who was once strong, could become depressed.

5. A lack of belief in 'God' or a afterlife...could also trigger depression in some, for without a 'afterlife', what's the purpose of 'current life', some may reason.

But better if here from depressed person so they can tell you why're they're depressed rather than a list of reasons why people do become depressed...

And it annoys me that seems every freagin horror movie I view always deals with, is totally centered around 'white' women getting chopped up.

Can't these 'white' male writers, be more creative than just always making it appear as if 'horror' only circles privileged 'white gals'...no wonder all abuse that takes place in Hollywood, I mean all this gore is coming from the minds of male writers.

How come stuffing face with food feels so good, as a way of masking self away from loneliness and despair...

Not in the most optimistic mood right now, not at all, for very uncertain work week ahead, schedule may change, and schedule is everything as you get older.

I refuse to work jobs anymore that have all kinds of odd hours, wake up hours and so forth, the days of me sacrificing health for low wage are just over.

The days of me believing that 'If you just work hard, you'll get ahead', are over.

Getting ahead has to do with being smart, not working hard.

Certain people take care of you at a job, and then they resign, and it's like starting over, and the true nature of others, the boss, could come out.

Just not a fun week ahead.

Sunday nights always the worst for me, and probably others who are on a m-f work schedule.

Cause you never really find yourself until Sunday night, when all is calm.

I just don't really feel hopeful anymore about much of anything.

People lie, services lie, they say your Podcast getting out on certain frequency, then come to find out they're full of crap, yet still paying.

The wealthy can really be slime balls, no one who's nice and honest really becomes wealthy.

Right now I do feel depressed, and there's nothing I can do about it.

Not really depressed but rather frustrated with my whole social enviornment.

I feel very alienated.

I feel like all my talents, looks, good behavior and more just wasted living around those who fail to see such qualities.

All the males look like goblins to me and the females may as well be aliens from another planet.

I can't relate to none of them nor them to me.

Everything just seems dull and grey to me.

And those who move around me, next to me, are never the types I can get alone with (get along fine, but life is about more than just being decent quiet neighbors)

I mean why can't attractive single people ever move next to me?, why does it always gotta be burned out looking types, why can't people who are in their prime ever move next to me?

Instead it's always broken odd weird family araingments, like Grandmothers raising off spring along, or _____ urban type ______ raising who knows what without regular _______ around.

Why can't just a regular single attractive woman move next to me, with no ______, or even single attractive _____ _______, I mean what do I care?

I just want someone to chat with now and then about anything.

Everyone is so closed off these days, guarded, paranoid.

And my work enviornment is just as bland, all the W country dudes let their bodies rot, no teeth, hairy faces ect, and all the urban B dudes look odd to me as well, and the urban F's dress in weird styles I can't really relate to.

I'm just lost I guess....and all males seem so very short, like midgets, pudgy midgets.

Just seems in real life no one looks as people look on TV or in the movies.

Instead all day long everyone I observe, while driving, they all look burned out, in wheel chairs, old and spent.....where's the youth!

America's not reproducing like days of old, and starting to see the effects of that.

The only youth you see now are immigrant youth.

W youth are vanishing, and it's the young that make you feel inspired to go on.

Seems the only people breeding anymore or urban single women and immigrants.

As if seeding the planet with future violent felons or something.

People who want to make America worse again or something.

Oh ye, back to 'the youth', particularly W youth, they're all strung out on opiods now, addiction, and dying left and right.

The urban drug pushers have snaked their way into small rural neighborhoods now (about 10 years ago or longer actually, and the cartels also)

So the prestine W youth that was protected do to geography, no longer so, now they're strung out to, and dying as a result.

Seems the only place you can find physical beauty anymore is among the fiscal elite, those with money who can afford to hide way out in safe guarded neighborhoods.

But the rest of society is socially collapsing, it's scary to watch, and now the measles are coming back (immigrants) E boli and more.

Housing prices out of control, rent prices, out of control, pay way to low to sustain anything.

Where's the light?

As soon as save up money to leave, then vehicle breaks down and costs to repair the very amount you saved up to move with...it just seems cruel.

All of social media controlled by foreign moderators who snuff out any American who seems patriotic, or censor I should say.

America is dying, the heartland of American is dying, I see it every day.

And it's being replaced by monsters.

Social media is basically meaningless, I mean ye, ye get 1000 views here, 20,000 there, but so what, views don't equate into anyone caring about you or wanting to be your friend.
In the olden days if you met 1000 people in real life, at least 100 of them would become your friend, I mean like talk on the phone together type of friend, where as on YouTube, ect, you can have 50,000 views, and 'nothing'....it's meaningless unless wanting to compile views simply to get 'paid' for those views.