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Post by X factor on Nov 3, 2023 23:59:12 GMT -5
This is why already missing 'home' or 'room' This is why already missing home or 'room', before I even leave, cause it's so comfortable. I have like 4 screens to watch movies or anything with, 2 or projector screens, for laying down and watching movies (not sure why I didn't think of this years ago) I mean who need HD, when a wall will do just fine. I mean, I just got room set up perfectly for myself (as perfect as I can afford and is practical) No hotel/motel room can match this. I wish I could live in this room forever, but time is winding down do to economics....I try not to think about it, cause it can take years to get a room, or you place the way you want it...and it's quiet to boot. Is why I have no need for the future, cause to me the future is dirty, and changes things you're comfortable with, at least at certain stages of life. When younger, all you look forward to is the future, but when older, you're like 'Nah, I'm OK with 'now''
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Post by X factor on Nov 23, 2023 10:19:26 GMT -5
It's Thanksgiving day It's T-day, again. And as usual, I will spend it alone (used to it) And I plan on staying sober today (that's the plan anyways) I need to get my body and mind right, again. I'm not happy or sad today, I'm just here, and glad I'm not working. Would rather be bored at home than working a job I can't stand. I may go workout later, in the park, do a few laps, stretch. I guess I'm still thankful for my ______. I often feel if you say what you're thankful for aloud, than evil or god or some other entity will then take it away from you. Anyways, not much else to say, a bit cold inside of place this morning, with space heater blowing at legs. Just got up, sat up, following a night and morning of extensive dreams, I mean my gosh, even Sean Hannity was in one of my dreams...yuk. I got two turkey legs I just through in a bot and boiled a few nights ago, I'll eat those today, but I do also have a taste for some cranberries, but not the gel kind....I may have to settle for cranberry flavored juice instead. Anyways, time to get on with the day that I'm still here and alive to do as I please with. Oh, and if want to stay in a decent mood today, just avoid the news headlines. I think Satan has taken over all news agencies...lol.
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Post by X factor on Nov 27, 2023 10:48:46 GMT -5
Haven't been much in a forum writing mood lately, thoughts and attention have been elsewhere.
I'm on tik tok now, 2 accounts, and on FB, and beginning to talk to old classmates again.
The majority of stuff on here is created out of a lonely void, but when that void is filled, the need to write to self gets diminished a bit.
It's more fun to post a 40 second vid on tik tok and get immediate attention...and yes, I know about the spy app angle, but what app doesn't spy on us these days.
Anyways, it's Monday, drank yesterday, don't feel like doing much today, although there's lots that need to get done, if I just was in the mood to do it.
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Post by X factor on Dec 7, 2023 23:23:37 GMT -5
Today was my B-day, and I didn't even care, and it saddens me that I didn't even care.
Haven't even checked my text messages, but did get a call from my ____ and ____, something that they've never done my whole adult life.
I just wasn't in a good spot today, emotionally.
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Post by X factor on Dec 17, 2023 12:11:23 GMT -5
I really do need to quit playing around on these blog forums and start engaging in things that actually matter to my life and future.
What I do, type, express on here, is such a bygone era now, like from centuries past now, compared to how people communicate and share info today.
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Post by X factor on Dec 18, 2023 20:48:50 GMT -5
For the first time in years, I'm back on FB and twitter or 'X' at the same timeTwitter or X = twitter.com/glasssoles88And FB = www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61554578979579Everything's all mixed up and confuse, names, titles, ect. Heck, what do I care, how many years do I have left on this earth anyways? Probably not many, so as long as I get expressions, and thoughts out there, what do I care anymore. I have no friends anyhow, and basically no family, so what do I care now, what others, who think I'm already dead, care about me? I just don't anymore...I'm here for me now.
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Post by X factor on Feb 3, 2024 0:28:45 GMT -5
I've gotta catch a flight on Sunday.
I'm terrible at planning ahead of time, I'm such a last minute, second, type.
It's probably why I'm not further along in life, cause I don't like planning for stuff.
I wake up, pack, and go...
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Post by X factor on Feb 27, 2024 10:03:47 GMT -5
Well, today, if all goes as planned in my head, I'll be renting a car and traveling a bit.
I hate driving when I'm not at work.
I drive for a living, so when off work, the last thing I want to do is drive some more, when I should be resting.
But this involves my future, property and stuff, that's been neglected, and so want to see how much I can get for it, if I can talk _____ into going along.
Cause I tell you what, I can't afford maintenance on this thing, since they totally wrecked the inside of it.
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And not only that, but I'm going to need another job soon, cause current one not working out anymore.
Sure, I have plenty of time off, but if slowly going broke now, what's the point.
But I don't want to get bogged down in a new job until I first resolve this property issue.
Work can really get in the way at times, and when get a new job, the last thing you want to do is start taking time off right after getting hired.
Life sucks, when at the economic bottom, that's for sure.
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Post by X factor on Mar 3, 2024 9:17:42 GMT -5
 Odd thing is, when I look at old adult stuff, couples having bi-racial sxx, orgies, you name it, feet fetish galore, and more, all sinful right? But odd thing is, is those people lived, lived their fleshly desires to the fullest, and now that older now, like me, I'm willing to bet they're all living more fulfilled lives than I am, have more love in their lives, have families, and still probably having plenty of sxx... Me, none of that... if I could go back in time, the heck with morality, I too would engage and have fun. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 10, 2024 14:26:44 GMT -5
I don't even read my emails anymore.
I only read my emails, I suppose, when I feel in control and in charge of things, my finances, otherwise now days, emails just full of 'stuff', demands, offers, this and that, that just add noise to my life.
And if someone calls, why don't they leave a test first, and identify who they are.
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Post by X factor on Mar 17, 2024 1:30:16 GMT -5
Don't lie about other people
It's hard for even a good person to overcome lies.
But who's worse, the liar or those who chose to believe those lies?
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Post by X factor on Apr 2, 2024 6:22:47 GMT -5
It's Morning time, day just beginning, I drank some beer yesterday, and well, it is what it is.
But now I really want to cut beer drinking out, for a while.
I need for my head, mind and thoughts to be clear, as I have some important life changing decisions to make, and when I make them, I want to make them with a clear mind, not a drunk one.
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Post by X factor on Apr 9, 2024 16:16:46 GMT -5
My life has taken a drastic turn lately, I think for the better.
Who knows.
My plan was to just focus on real estate, as in get some land, and retreat from the grid, but I kind of got side tracked into something else.
And looking back at my life, usually my side tracks end in disaster or a dead end.
I do know this, you cannot be a productive person and drink at the same time. alcohol totally messes with your ability to think and function, and it messes with your mood, big time.
I mean I guess if you just drink like 1 beer a day, or some other small quantity, but my problem is I can't do that...I have to drink till drunk, and then suffer the effects the next day.
Anyways, in a odd state of mind right now, things happening so quickly, things changing so quickly from my normal mundane life schedule for about the last decade or more.
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Post by X factor on May 23, 2024 7:38:59 GMT -5
Sometimes I think I grow more tired and weary of myself, more so than life itself.
It's me, that's wearing me out, not so much life.
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Post by X factor on May 30, 2024 10:42:54 GMT -5
Not sure if I can ever get out of my own way, in order to get ahead in life...whatever the hell that even means anymore at this stage of living.
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