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Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2017 9:20:01 GMT -5
Oh how I miss the basementI've been away from the basement for quite some time, but boy how I do still miss it here.  There's really nothing top side accept mayhem and violence and humans and monsters. Yes, I put humans and monsters in the same catigory. Although sometimes I think monsters are an improvement in that at least monsters are honest, humans are not. Anyways, quiet time in the basement gets me away from all of that, and off all the places I could of gone, my heart chose to come here first. Life, distractions, other things, have just taken me away from my first love, and that is writing or expression, hopefully now I'll have more time to crank this part of my existance up again. Feels good to be home, yep sure does.
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Post by X factor on Feb 11, 2018 2:27:48 GMT -5
I never thought the day would come where I know longer want to be popular.
Like the opening theme to one of 'Boy George's' songs said 'Popularity breeds contempt'.
They were right in that humans are very emotionally flawed, and being 'popular' or known simply exposes you to more of other peoples flaws.
Humans are cruel, among other things as well.
And no matter what you do, say, or how you present yourself, a few will always take offense.
Out of every 20 people who know you, there's always be about 2-3 in that number that hate you or see you as a threat, for their own made up insecure reasons.
Being popular really is no good unless have a wall of money to hide behind.
And also, if popular, one has to be very singular in identity, the same all the time.
Most aren't the same all the time though, and that's where 'issues' come up in that one set of people may know a side of you that the other set doesn't.
The more popular you become the less secrets one can keep about themselves, as such kind of forced to become one singular generic bland person to please everyone or to save self from harrassment.
Myself personally, I can't be one person all the time to everyone in that my moods change, and so does often my style of expression, but mainly online.
Online is an escape.
I think being popular is for those who are 'whole' on the inside and comfortable just playing one role in life.
And in being popular, it's not strangers you have to worry about, it's those who 'think' they know you, closest to you, be it family, former friends, co-workers, are the ones that can cause the most grievence..
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Post by X factor on Mar 4, 2018 23:15:45 GMT -5
The basement is safe, sort of.
Humans are dangerous...the nature of man is corrupt.
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Post by X factor on Apr 8, 2018 20:18:13 GMT -5
I'm still here...and still like this section, 'The Basement'...
I just don't blog like I use to, instead into internet radio, and creating those shows take up all my time now, creative time as well.
Still not where I want to be in life, doubt I'll ever get there...
At times I feel I have no future, and the past vanishes with each second.
Most of my life and passions, and wonders, are simply lived out while dreaming at night.
The dream world is not a money based system, you just do as you think, or are thrust into odd scenerios...
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Being online has become so intrusive now, it's no longer fun, adds have taken over, google and FB ect, and twitter, all they do is spy on you and sell your stuff.
And or they supress your writings if your writings don't agree with them...it's all controlled, as such that takes all the fun out of it.
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Right now it's peaceful though, in the basement.
At least I have that, peaceful nights, so far, but nothing lasts forever.
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Post by X factor on Nov 8, 2018 19:02:37 GMT -5
The Basement
Yes, the basement, there's no better place I'd like to be right now than right here in the basement, a place of rest, quite and thought.
The older I get the less impressed I am with mans modernization, roads, traffic, cities, urban clutter, the older I get the more useless its all becoming to me.
Some marvel at mans industrialized progress, I see it as slavery, slavery to the system, slavery to always needing a check to barely make it.
People forced to labor their whole lives just to still basically die broke.
Stuff, things, I guess when at the economic bottom, just becomes meaningless, but power brokers need their stuff and things and products moved and shipped, thus employment.
Millions of peoples low wage labor helps to allow a few to prosper...so I guess the key is to become one of those who prosper, if can stay motivated long enough to do so.
But after a while one can begin realizing that that's more to life than laboring all the time, just to feel responsible ect...
Some just want to be left alone, the way a roving animal is in nature, but in today's world, it's near impossible to be left alone, all land is zoned or owned. And it's not like the olden days where one could be like Grizzly Adams and just live off the land.
And just being homeless is not the same, in that when homeless on the streets, can't hunt, can't just light a fire anywhere or pitch a tent anywhere or drink fresh water from streams, they're all polluted now...so when homeless now, basically still forced to live within system and to depend on the system for food, or food banks, shelters, ect...
I"m basically sick of it all.
Think if Columbus had never ran into America, think if America were still a vast untamed territory (Sadly though, if not Columbus eventually another old world nation would of found it)
The only real escape anymore for many is when you go to sleep at night and dream.
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Post by X factor on Jan 1, 2019 0:38:26 GMT -5
In the Basement I wish all that noise would stop, I mean is it suppose to be a holiday or something? I just want to be left alone, down here in the basement all by myself. I'm less and less able to relate to others, it seems, only when I have to do I.
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Post by X factor on Jan 1, 2019 0:41:40 GMT -5
Why can't a hero come alone and rescue me, like on TV, but since I have zero values to others, I'm just left a lone to rot...but if I'm gonna rot, can I at least rot in peace without all the odd noises tonight? |
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Post by X factor on Mar 13, 2019 22:36:00 GMT -5
I'm glad I'm not top side, so happy to just be here in basement.
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Post by X factor on Mar 16, 2019 19:19:10 GMT -5
Movement is kind of useless, now I see why trees are so wise.
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Post by X factor on Mar 29, 2019 7:43:43 GMT -5
I find safety, calm and relaxation in just being still.
The only time I get anxious anymore, in a bad way, is when I have to move around.
Movement is useless to me now.
It's all been done before, everything is circular, the good, the bad and the ugly.
Meaningless commotion. The best among us have faded.
Working, just to earn enough to feed into this meaningless tax based society is proving futile for meaning, just a meaningless exercise in nothing.
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Post by X factor on Apr 30, 2020 10:33:04 GMT -5
Today I've got to get up out of the basement and stir about, do a bit of traveling.
I've enjoyed my time off, and many low paying people, who have been off, I think they're realizing how much their labor is taken for granted, as if it's their duty to work for such low pay just because.
But pay is not my issue, seldom is anymore, with me it's all about quality time off between shifts.
Unless one own's there own business, or an athlete, you can't physically labor your way to prosperity, it's impossible unless earning a very high hourly wage, which only Union jobs seem to pay anymore.
But, what one can do, if smart when young, is leverage what income they do make to propel them to another fiscal level as in saving for college, or a tech school, or investing or saving for down payment on property, a house, so there are ways low wage people can get ahead, but it takes a lot of discipline, and it's hard to save when rents do, or need gas for vehicle ext.
I'm beginning a new phase right now, like the whole shifting cube paradyme.
Stepping into a new space, we shall see, back soon.
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Post by X factor on May 3, 2020 3:10:32 GMT -5
There's other things you can catch when you go out, other than corona virus.
Seems lately, every time I go out to public places, I always come back with the sniffles from just other peoples germs.
Also, when people rush out again in mass numbers, many will catch common colds from being so isolated during this period.
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Post by X factor on May 24, 2020 23:37:51 GMT -5
i stay in the basement, why are they making so much noise upstairs tonight?? |
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Post by X factor on Jun 17, 2020 6:58:39 GMT -5
I have to leave my place in a few hours, oh how I dread leaving the basement. In the basement I'm in control of everything that occurs, the climate, everything, but once step out the basement, I"m more like a ball withing a pinball machine.  Yes, once I leave place and go out there, I'm just tossed around by life, by others, by other peoples perception of me, which effects how they behave towards me...(this applies to every one) Being in the basement, or just being at your home, is so much safer than going out. Sometimes I wish there were a prison for good people. Sometimes I wish there were a prison for good people Yes, a prison for good people where could be locked away, have on cell, and be protected from the outside world. Prisons are designed for the bad, but they should actually be designed for the good, when you think about it. Free food, bed, recreational yard, medical, dental. They should design a prison for the good, as a way of keeping the bad out. |
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Post by X factor on Jun 23, 2020 3:32:26 GMT -5
Yesterday was 'no phone' or email day, I just needed to shut it all off and restore thy mind.
I did not need to receive any in coming information from anyone or thing.
Sometimes you have to just let the mind rest.
Also, when I dream, I never dream about anything currently going on in the news, nothing.
Which means I don't take whatever is going on in the world all that seriously...I guess cause it's not effecting me.
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