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Post by X factor on Mar 2, 2014 23:26:16 GMT -5
 The BasementA place you go when you don't really feel like believing in much of anything. Those moments when you realize how futile everything is, how rigged things are, by both man, and the spirits. And if you're not favored by man, or the spirits, it's pretty hard to rise above your circumstances. So many things have to be mentally right in your head, in order to convince self that energy put forth to do something will pay off. And so many things have to be right in your environment also...if not you'll just stumble through life. Stumble through life in a cold, wet, damp basement with water dripping down.  . |
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Post by X factor on Mar 4, 2014 17:44:55 GMT -5
I'm in a basement mood right now.
Alive, but no projection.
I feel like I'm in an environment of 'dead' at times.
Some of the people I encounter daily just seem 'dead', no life, ugly souls that see no potential in you cause they have none.
No love, just spite.
When we as people stop seeking out love from the divine, we become really ugly.
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Post by X factor on Mar 21, 2014 18:29:52 GMT -5
In a basement mood again.
When there's no other place to go with thoughts, I come into the basement, where it's dark and damp and you're at the bottom.
Looking up, but not knowing how to get there.
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Post by X factor on Mar 23, 2014 21:29:57 GMT -5
Be weary of emotional Vampires...  They come in all shapes, colors, genders and sizes. They come as induvisuals and or as Corporate entities, or even Governments. But for purpose of this post, I'm referring more to induvisuals who exploit your Love and compassion, and sense of loyalty, for their own selfish purposes. Emotional Vampires slowly drain you of your spirit. They slowly starve you of what they know you need to thrive, and replace it with their own interest. Example, a Emotional Vampire will see that you're good at Dancing or Theater, but they need you for Janitorial work. So instead of them releasing you, and encouraging you to pursue what you're gifted at, they'll purposely go out of their way to not remind you of your potential. (since your potential doesn't serve there needs). Instead they slowly destroy your spirit and ambitions, by using your time and energy for their purpose, and not your own. And to be a emotional Vampire, you have to be very dishonest. If no one ever compliments you on anything, than they have a bit of Vampirism in them. Vampires are very selfish, and never want you to know, or feel, that you're actually 'decent', or good at anything. Emotional Vampires are everywhere. Could be your boss, your manager, even your spouse or sibling. Could be your classmate or classmates. They feed off of destroying your potential. And are clever about doing it. For if they did it all at once, you'd recognize it, so sometimes they drag it out over years, draining you of your blood, or life force or spirit until they replace the 'Sun' in your life, and artificially control your emotions. They become the source of both your pain and joy, like a drug dealer who gets you addicted, then pretends to be your savior by supplying you with more drugs. And an emotional Vampire always makes everything seem like it's your fault. They know you inside and out, know your good nature, and exploit that. Be aware of emotional vampires. |
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Post by X factor on Mar 30, 2014 4:28:18 GMT -5
 Being in the basement can be like trying to navigate through a serious of underground tunnels, miles long, and seems the more you try to find your way out, the darker the tunnels become. |
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Post by X factor on Aug 2, 2014 19:03:03 GMT -5
Not in a very bright mood right now...in a basement mood I suppose.
Basements are actually safe, compared to elsewhere in the human matrix of control.
TV makes people appear so bright and bubbly all the time, real life is so different.
If you look to good, certain people don't like you, and if you don't look good enough, others snub you.
Everyone carries around an ego the size of Mt Rushmore.
Everyone assumes things that aren't true.
Not really sure what 'God' saw in the nature of man that was so worth saving.
The longer you live, the less any of it makes sense.
The more you think the less any of it makes sense.
And the more honest you are with yourself, the less any of it makes sense.
And that's the problem, is folks are afraid to be honest about things any more and just let go.
When you just let go, you're able to see a lot more.
But I guess that's what culture and religion is for, is to keep folks tied down to 'stuff'....like comfort blankets.
People get their identities and reason for being, through culture and religion I suppose, and so to let go, for some, most, would be like just allowing yourself to drift through space, with nothing to hold onto.
As such it's easier for most to gravitate towards ideologies, religions, culture, traditions, anything that keeps them close to something, rather than adrift in space, the in between points where you actually have to be honest with yourself about many things.
Most think and reason like lab rats.
Others keep growing and backing away from it all until there's really no more attatchment, or if there is just going through the motions cause you have to.
When will this cruel, and sometimes delightful for some, experiment end?
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Post by X factor on Mar 1, 2015 17:50:38 GMT -5
 Not sure why I'm in a murky type of a basement mood Has been a odd weekend, yesterdays a blur, and today I just can't get it going. Feel very alone and isolated. Just not having a great time this weekend. I actually wish I were the only one on the planet right now. If I were, for some reason I'd feel less lonely.  In all these movies (think 3 of them were made), the men seem agonized over being the last person alive on Earth. I think I'd feel relieved by that fact, and see it as cutting out a lot of stress in life. No man, no society, no taxes, no work for a wage type of set up, no artificial schedule to keep, no rules, no politics, just wake up and live life as one saw fit, like the animals. And there'd always be plenty to do and learn, so many buildings to explore, cars to drive, weapons to play around with, gyms to use, shoes to try on. Think of all the endless supply of shoes one could try one and play around with.  All the 10's of 1000's of shoes, and would never have to worry about not finding your size. And all the clothing one could try one and experiment with without anyone there to judge. Yes life alone of the planet would be quite fun for me, and probably a few others, who are already alone now as it is, but simply have to put up with societal rules and systems. Only thing is though...all grocery store food would rot, like meats and vegetables. But if alone could simply grow own fresh gardens. Also power plants would probably explode do to being unmanned...especially nuclear powered ones. Lots of systems would go down, damns, city utilities, so it would probably be a landscape with no electricity in most places. One would have to get a generator to have electricity unless one knew how to keep power going in one small town or unless one knew how to operate a hydro damn...  Most people take for granted how electricity is generated, stored and then distributed to homes, offices. With no one around to man them, soon all hydro damns would cease to function or blow up. A lot of things would cease to function, including water plants as well.  Again, without workers to manage water plants, recycle waste water, soon the supply of fresh piped water would be gone. And if ever got sick, or needed operation, no Doctor to help, or nurse...but at least there's be plenty of medicine...and drugs. Also plenty of 'weed', for those into that...think of all the weed one could indulge in if last known person on Earth...just would have to find it I guess. Weed and other narcotics to, if last person on Earth one could do anything they wanted to, no rules saying 'no'...no one to harm or hurt accept oneself. Internet and all that other stuff would probably go down to, along with satellites... One would have to travel to all the zoos and free all the animals from their cages. That would be a challenge, but also provide something to do, a mission...to go around freeing all trapped animals from cages, zoos, animal shelters, back yards, homes, houses. Doubt one would be able to save them all. It might take a life time just to free all animals from one large city, let alone whole State or nation. But still I'd rather deal with all of that than man. Man is cruel, and subjects people to forcibly live under variety of Governments, rulerships, States, systems and religions. I'm really notimpressed with the modern world as many others seem to be, I just see it as getting in the way of what life really should be like. If I were the last known person on Earth I definitely would not complain or try to bring anyone back, I'd be content. |
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Post by X factor on Jun 8, 2015 6:00:44 GMT -5
 Hi, sometimes feel as is forever stuck in the basement of life, of society. I mean I know everything is relative in that my basement may be someone else's paradise and someone else's paradise may be my basement and so forth. Everything is relative to where you live, how you were raised, where you were raise and the types of expectations put on self when young, by parents and or the community around you. Everyone has their own sense of achievement and failure. It's when you fail to live up to those achievements that issues in the mind arise. Some are just happy to be alive, and to be loved. Others are alive, but aren't loved and so measure progress in other ways. When you're loved even the worst situations seem brighter cause you feel like you're on a team. But when not loved, there's no such team to gravitate towards. Lets change topics... MondaysI get more of a satisfaction from not going to work on Monday than any other day of the week. I mean sure you get Saturday and Sunday off automatically (well some do). But Monday you have to 'take' that day off simply cause you want to, and as such there's more satisfaction from taking Monday off, extending the weekend cause you want to. Cause to me it takes 3 days to re coop, not 2. Life is short, healthy life is even shorter, and if apart of the working, labor class, can't hourly labor way to wealth, it's impossible today. So to me Mondays are kind of like the 'F' off world day to me, in that maybe I'll go in, maybe I won't. Going in or not, either choice will in no way shape or form change my fiscal outcome in life. But being at peace, healthy and relaxed will, but being a labor slave will not. All being a labor slave does is keep you busy for a day. Anyways...I'm in the basement right now, metaphorically speaking. The basement of life, just here. |
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Post by X factor on Jun 16, 2015 21:25:40 GMT -5
Tomorrow means absolutely nothing to me, as of this moment in time.
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Post by X factor on Jun 16, 2015 21:28:39 GMT -5
The world is stacked against honest clean people, only the corrupt seem to get ahead.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2015 9:01:23 GMT -5
I'm loosing interest in others, and very fast, people just don't interest me anymore.
No one ever offers me anything that will make my life better, phone only rings when asked to do favor for someone else, but phone never rings by anyone looking out for my interest or struggles.
I know the script by now, my script, as such don't even want to go out anymore, I know how people are, their biases, their fears, their weakness, and their behavior.
I really have no role or place in society no more, accept to pay bills.
I'm only important to those I owe money to, as in bills or payments, but outside of that, I have zero relevance.
So I stay home and just relax best I can.
Nothing or no one interests me right now, and it shouldn't be that way.
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Post by X factor on Jun 21, 2015 9:11:25 GMT -5
There are 1000's more Dylaans out there, instead of people finding them, caring for them, they flood church buildings to be around other healthy peopleThere are 1000's more out there like Dylaan Roof, of all different colors and genders, orientations and kindred. And none feel invited or welcome at all these church services going on today, as such problem is not solved. All you have occurring today, at the churches, are the healthy and whole congradulating other healthy and whole people. But the outcast are still outcast, still out here, still in the basement. 
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Post by X factor on Jun 23, 2015 6:26:17 GMT -5
Yesterday was every bit as bad as I thought it would be.
Lots of money gone, nothing in.
People are evil, regardless of what side of register they're own.
There are robbers on both sides of the register.
Only those who rob you on the money side of the register do so in non violent way, instead they use dishonesty, over charge, fix prices and on and on.
People on the money side of the register, the money side of the system, don't have to use violence to get over on you, and daily rob people of way, tons of more, money than the lowly street robber, who only gets dollars and cents for their effort, where as those who rob from the money side of register gets 1000's of dollars per day from corrupt practices.
A robber, thief, liar is a robber, thief and liar, regardless of what side of register they do their dirty deeds.
The world goes round on corruption, those who accuse others of being corrupt and without morals, are just as corrupt and without morality.
And that's what I find amazing.
I see evil flaring up in all people on all side, of all colors and genders and collective religions.
And the good and vulnerable just keep getting stepped on.
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Not sure how today will be.
I just know most I encounter today will be corrupt, be hiding something, will have a chip on their soldier, which will make them have an attitude.
Every one is damaged.
Some are just able to hide their damage better than others.
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Post by X factor on Jun 26, 2015 20:02:35 GMT -5
Detoxing right now, letting all the gunk from previous week fade away from mind and body.
Today started off OK, then got bogged down by other apparatuses of business or industry.
We are ants to Millionaires, Billionaires and big industry.
They step on use all the time, or the apparatuses they create.
They don't, themselves, or they'd get punched in the face like any other person, but they're so insulated by their wealth, they are well out of our reach.
Most of us work for tokens, die broke, and told to feel good about it.
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Post by X factor on Aug 2, 2015 3:51:07 GMT -5
The world has always been evil, just some are, were, have been sheltered from that evil.
Other people were never sheltered from it.
Good people tend to assume everyone else is good, and bad people tend to believe everyone is bad and crooked like themselves.
It's getting to the point now where it's harder and harder to find good decent people, people who are fair, don't have chip on shoulder, don't negatively condemn others and then act out bias in a physical way.
People like this are becoming harder and harder to find.
Everyone seems to have a slant or angle, which is directed at making an enemy out of others or another, and for no real good reason.
This goes across all cultural and gender lines.
We just live in a world filled with a lot of bad spirits that seem to infect the reasoning ability of mankind.
Everything is twisted, those who are good and decent are accused of being bad, and those who are twisted are elevated to lofty status.
You walk into a store and you're 20 peoples enemy who don't know a thing about you, but presume the worst.
That's one reason I know God dwells in hardly anyone, cause if God were all knowing, and inside someone, they would treat you accordingly, but instead humans are led around by social bias, not ever having sense to question if what they've learned, or presume about another is even correct.
Being correct doesn't even matter anymore, folks just want to be right in their own ugly bias or ideas about others.
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