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Alone
Oct 30, 2023 22:05:21 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Oct 30, 2023 22:05:21 GMT -5
I'm tired  Tired of being alone, tired of being misunderstood by others, by society, by the world. This image here, is who I really am, but no one sees that in real life, instead, instead, their, your, eyes blind you.
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Alone
Nov 4, 2023 9:25:20 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Nov 4, 2023 9:25:20 GMT -5
I think I'm more afraid of the world now, than I was when I was way younger
I'm more afraid of the world now, of people, than I was when I was way younger.
I wonder if other people are like that to?
I think maybe cause when younger (depending on where and how raised) we just assume everyone and everything is good, but of course, depending on path through life, that view of others/the world, can become jaded after a while.
I guess it's different for everyone, cause no two people walk the same path through life.
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Alone
Nov 29, 2023 8:26:18 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Nov 29, 2023 8:26:18 GMT -5
Life can suck at times, but going through life alone even sucks more.
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Alone
Dec 19, 2023 22:49:36 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Dec 19, 2023 22:49:36 GMT -5
I'm totally cut off from everyone, and have no idea what I should do next...not sure what next goal should be in life, it's like a hour by hour thing.
I'm truly alone, so it's like starting all over again, only now I'm a bit older, so now what?
Very odd feeling, guess I'll have to wait and see.
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Alone
Dec 19, 2023 22:51:35 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Dec 19, 2023 22:51:35 GMT -5
This place here, the internet connection, has provided me with so much relief, escape, but for a while in the near future, I may be cut off from it all for a while.
Need to start putting stuff on the cloud until things get back to normal, assuming their not normal.
Nothing stays the same forever, we tell ourselves that over and over again in our minds, but when that change finally occurs, wow, it just does, and it's as if the past never existed.
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Alone
Dec 19, 2023 22:52:47 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Dec 19, 2023 22:52:47 GMT -5
What I really want going forward is freedom, but freedom to do what?
Sometimes you don't know what you'll do when free, until you're actually free.
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Alone
Dec 31, 2023 17:36:10 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2023 17:36:10 GMT -5
Sometimes, in order to protect yourself, depending on your own personal circumstances, you just need to emotionally back out of everything.
Emotional traps can be deadly.
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Alone
Dec 31, 2023 17:38:02 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2023 17:38:02 GMT -5
I did fine, for years, when alone.
Better to be alone, than to be around devils.
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Alone
Dec 31, 2023 17:39:18 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Dec 31, 2023 17:39:18 GMT -5
Also, expecting 'justice', or for others to 'see', or 'if they could just see', is a mistake.
People see what they want to see, regardless of evidence.
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Alone
Feb 4, 2024 11:46:26 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Feb 4, 2024 11:46:26 GMT -5
Nothing can describe the depth of feeling alone, when simply want to be supported, comforted.
The idea that no one on the whole planet, out of billions, not even those you work with, or your supposed family, to know, no one is concerned about you.
Even as you're sacrificing your own fiscal future, to help another.
Nothing can describe this feeling.
Then, when leave place, have to put on a normal face.
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Alone
Mar 12, 2024 23:59:37 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Mar 12, 2024 23:59:37 GMT -5
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Alone
Mar 16, 2024 1:09:19 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Mar 16, 2024 1:09:19 GMT -5
Night eats the world, movie (is how I so feel at times being alone down here on this planet)
Nough said, will elaborate later when more awake.
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Alone
Sept 27, 2024 19:29:20 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Sept 27, 2024 19:29:20 GMT -5
I have like the most empty social orbit ever.
Even when going to Hollywood soon, not a single person in my dead orbit field could care the less.
Amazing...I'll never forget that, that feeling of aloneness, should my fortunes ever change.
Not a single soul helped me...not one.
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Alone
Oct 7, 2024 9:03:00 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Oct 7, 2024 9:03:00 GMT -5
I'm alone, I can live with that, I have no other choice but to.
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Alone
Oct 14, 2024 22:59:35 GMT -5
Post by X factor on Oct 14, 2024 22:59:35 GMT -5
once you realize you're really alone, is when you realize you're truly free.
No more accountability.
The stress is suddenly all gone.
Stop caring for those who never gave a damn about you...and who are warped by the devils whatever.
Just be free...me, you, us, one day....
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