Void

I need to remind myself to buy some survivalist stuff soon, as in portable water filter device, water proof matches, a tent, folding army type shovel, maybe even a ballistic vest, I don't know.

I just feel something heavy and hot is about to go down world wide...I could be wrong, and probably am.

I feel like getting lost in some scary science fiction movie right now, let's see what I can dig up.

My life is real simply cause I have no one in it to make it complicated, and again, maybe that's not such a bad thing.

It's not normal to turn on the radio and hear people talking about the same stuff over and over again, like 'C' virus updates and crap.

The 'C' virus hasn't effected me in the least bit, and if never even heard of it on the radio, I'd not even know it existed, yet all I hear on the radio is 'C' virus BS over and over again, are people just that easily programable?

In a slump inside of the void

I'm in a slump, inside of the void, my creative 'flair' isn't there right now, well it is, but to lethargic to act on it, lately I've been content to just watch a few movies and watch other peoples creativity, average types who get paid to be creative cause they followed a better path when younger.

I think most everyone is creative actually, from the person working in the field to the person living in a penthouse atop Manhattan, but not everyone has proper path to get their creativity displayed, and even fewer have the path to get paid for their creativity.

I think if you gave just about anyone a million dollar budge to create a movie, most anyone could produce a decent movie, with help and assistance ect.

But some don't even have $10 dollars to eat, let alone the budget for a movie in their back pocket.

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What a differnce time makes, I mean about a 16 months ago I was cranking out podcasts, blogging, had like 4 websites and more, and it seemed effortless and just flowed, I was just in a different 'Time and Space' then I suppose....now, now...not sure where I'm at.

There's really no one I want to impress anymore, humans are mean, even people who are your friends can be mean, this idea that 'Jesus' would want to die for anyones sin is starting to seem more and more ridiculus to me.

I mean really, what is there to love about 'man'?

Look how brutal man has been to one another over the centuries, only recently, as in past 40 years or so, have people chilled, just a bit, but that's only in U.S., and even then not really, just media, TV shows, Commercials, make it seem as if all is fine, and everyone is happy, and no one hates gays anymore and racism doesn't exist anymore, and just go to McDonalds and have a great time type of nonsense.

Truth is people are damaged on the inside, and as such that damage makes folks, angry, mean, grouchy, racist, bigots, bullies, criminals, liars, con artists and more.

And then after we've done our damage we get old and wither.

I think it's a lot easier to believe Jesus loves 'you' when young and in your 20's than it is when 75 and body falling apart.

Or even if apart of dominant culture of whatever society happen to be apart of.

All that aside I'm still in a slump.

Lazy and content to do nothing, and just wither away, and just enjoy my days while I can and worry about absolutely nothing else or no one else.

When you're a ghost, every day is a rerun